26/07/2025
A personal message from Andy at Return To Roots
The Story behind the 150th inhale & exhale
Tonight, the Return To Roots community celebrated our 150th free online circle. For anyone reading this who has never been (yet), the Friday circle is a 60 minute online (zoom room) where I facilitate a breathwork journey, to sound, guidance and a little integration.
For those who attend regularly, you might have heard me say the story behind the Friday breathwork sessions. The choice in time and day was an old nod to an old life where that time of the week represented a moment where I would escape my life via the pub! Now we purposely use this moment in time to pull our feelings closer through the breathwork - swapping the hangover for more headspace. Yet this story only holds half the truth to why I continue to host the breathwork every week, so I thought I would use this milestone to share with you the other reasonā¦
In 2022, my mum was diagnosed with stage four cancer. At the time, I was midway through an international breathwork certification program with intergrative breath. One of the course requirements was to facilitate breathwork sessions and document the experience. As part of this, I set up a weekly online breathwork group every Friday from 5ā6 pm (UK). The intention was to create a space where individuals, especially those like my mumārestricted by illness or other circumstancesācould experience the therapeutic benefits of breathwork. The sessions were free, and over time, a small but vibrant community formed around the practice of breathing together, accompanied by music and my guidance.
Initially, I didnāt fully grasp the potential of what we were buildingāI was simply following a gut feeling that it was the right thing to do. As my mumās health deteriorated and her pain became unmanageable, she continued to join the Friday sessions. These moments became her only time of respiteāher only escape from pain, when she could feel peace and a sense of inner freedom.
It wasnāt long before I realised she wasnāt alone in seeking liberation from suffering. Week after week, our community came together to breatheāto find that part of ourselves untouched by stress, loss, or hardship. Each of us brought our own struggles to the circle: job loss, divorce, grief, illness, addiction, or other challenges. Through breathwork, we discovered a profound sense of connection, healing, and strength.
In June 2023, my mum took her last breath at The Christie Hospital in Manchester. The pain was unavoidable, but even in grief, I turned to breathwork and found solace in the community we had built. I realised that much of my life had been spent running from deathāand, in doing so, often forgetting how to live fully in the present moment - the final lesson my mum taught me.
I host our Friday sessions on a volunteer basis to honour all who have the courage to embrace life despite our struggles and imperfections. To bring humour and a touch of light heartedness to spaces where sadness and loss can also sit alongside us.
My breathwork story is, on one level, about a sonās enduring love for his mum. On a deeper level, itās a call to action on how we can leverage what we have instead of dwelling on what we lack. Rather than rearranging life to find calm, why not learn to locate it within the chaos?
The good news is you are not alone in this quest. Since 2022, over three hundred souls from all walks of life have joined this growing community. Together, 150 times now. Each week, I show upānot out of obligation, but because I believe in this practice. And I know many of you show up for the same reason: to remind yourselves that everything you need is already within you.
I warmly invite you to join our community and experience the Friday Breathwork circle.
With gratitude,
Andy