10/01/2023
Welcome to January! It's taken me a while to ease in to 2023 but I feel OK about that - I read some words that really resonated with me last week and decided to listen to myself, stop beating myself up, and rest.
You may notice I've been a little quiet on here of late - not that I'm ever that loud on social media, that's not my thing, but I'm aware I've not posted in a couple of months.
In truth I found the later part of 2022 quite hard emotionally. Moving home twice, feeling unsettled, and all the stress that comes with buying a property had sent me into a downward spiral of negative thoughts, and even after we moved into our new home, I couldn't get out of the minsdet I had come to inhabit.
The negative script in my head was telling me stories - stories that filled me with dread, stories that told me I would never be good enough, stories that told me to give up. And I believed those stories, even though I was aware that it was not me telling them.
By December I found myself in a really low place and turned to mum for support, and it was here that I learned to turn these stories on their head.
I realised that my mind has been lying to me all along, and that I dont need to listen to what it says. In fact, whatever my negative script says now, I tell myself the opposite. I vow to talk to myself as I would talk to a good friend.
Knowing this information has been like waking up from a deep sleep, finding renewed love and respect for myself, feeling like I'd found myself again. How quickly things can turn around!
So wherever you are and wherever you're starting this year, know that you're ok just as you are. Ignore that voice that wants to tear you down and befriend yourself again 🧡
