The Infinite Recovery Project

The Infinite Recovery Project This page is dedicated to exposing the hidden dynamics of trauma, identity and performance in mental health and recovery. Most of us are taught this.

We explore trauma integrated care, real transformation beyond theory, a deeper path to healing that reconnects us to our true nature For a long time, I thought real change had to be hard. That it meant pushing, forcing, and struggling to break old habits. That change is tough. That it takes willpower and discipline. But what if it isn’t that way at all? What if the complexity we live in is a byproduct of the human condition, and real transformation is much simpler than we’ve been led to believe? This is what Infinite Recovery is about. Not managing symptoms. Not fixing what’s “broken.”
But uncovering the wholeness that’s already here - mind, body and spirit together. After three decades of walking this path myself and with others, I’ve seen people discover possibilities they never thought were available. And every time, it begins in the same place: with simplicity.

24/01/2026

Depression isn’t something that appears out of nowhere.
And it isn’t a personal failure, a broken brain, or proof that something is wrong with you.

What if depression is your body telling you to slow down?

Many people who experience depression have learned to disconnect from their inner world suppressing emotions, ignoring pain, and pushing through life on autopilot. Eventually, the system finds a way to stop you.

Depression isn’t madness.
It’s not a flaw in your mind.
It’s your system asking to be heard.

For years, depression has been framed as a chemical imbalance or a mental illness but these are theories and classifications, not causes. When we believe we are “afflicted,” we unknowingly deepen the suffering.

This video invites a different understanding one rooted in listening, feeling, and reconnecting with yourself rather than fighting or fixing who you are.

Antidepressants can have a place, especially short term, but they are not a long-term solution on their own. True recovery begins when we stop running from pain and start listening to what it’s trying to tell us.

Learn more at: https://infiniterecoveryproject.com
Get my book on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/dp/1068323302

𝗗𝗼 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗞𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗜𝘁 𝗜𝘀 𝗬𝗼𝘂’𝗿𝗲 𝗟𝗼𝗼𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗧𝗵𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵?Most people engaging with this work think they get it. They nod, they reso...
24/01/2026

𝗗𝗼 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗞𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗜𝘁 𝗜𝘀 𝗬𝗼𝘂’𝗿𝗲 𝗟𝗼𝗼𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗧𝗵𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵?

Most people engaging with this work think they get it. They nod, they resonate, they relate

They think its familiar, ah it's trauma informed, it's like this or that..

But resonance and agreement, that's the mind avoiding discomfort, it needs to know, no one ever asks so how does this work...

And the greatest barrier to healing is thinking you already know, it's the ego's defence

What you’re looking at always seems like the problem, your relationships, your anxiety, your addiction, your client’s resistance, your nervous system, your past, your finances, that guy on LinkedIn, training, therapy on and on right, it's endless

and that's not the issue, they will never end..

You’re looking through a dirty window, then trying to rearrange what you see out there, fix it, control it, reframe it. Therapy, recovery, personal development, all end up happening out there...

I'm going to therapy
I'm working on this
I'm changing that
I'm going emdr...

Until you’ve questioned the thing that’s doing the doing, you’ll just keep polishing the illusion, better beliefs, more self-awareness, “nervous system work,” somatic tools. All helpful, but none transformational if the one using them is still the problem they’re trying to fix..

As Rupert Spira points out in The Nature of Consciousness, any model that doesn’t investigate the nature of awareness is always going to be partial

Most of what we call healing is just horizontal, rearranging circumstances, feelings, stories, hoping the vertical shift will follow

But true healing doesn’t happen from the self. It happens to the self when the illusion of it softens

So instead of what's the next best tool, modality..

𝗪𝗵𝗼 𝗶𝘀 𝗶𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁’𝘀 𝗹𝗼𝗼𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴?
𝗔𝗻𝗱 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝗹𝗼𝗼𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵?

23/01/2026

Addiction is a relationship not a behavior.

It’s not about what you use, but how you relate to it.

The same drink can be a celebration for one person…
and an escape for another.
Same action. Two completely different inner worlds.

Until the relationship changes, addiction doesn’t disappear
it simply morphs into something else.

True recovery is not about removing the substance.
It’s about healing the reason you needed it in the first place.

This video explores addiction from a deeper, soul-level perspective
where recovery becomes transformation, not punishment.

Learn more at: https://infiniterecoveryproject.com
Get my book on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/dp/1068323302

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟱: 𝗙𝗿𝗲𝗲𝗱𝗼𝗺 𝗙𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗮𝗻 𝗘𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗗𝗶𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗿 𝗜𝘀 𝗡𝗼𝘁 𝗖𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗿𝗼𝗹Bringing it all together, why recovery isn’t a behaviour or a diagn...
23/01/2026

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟱: 𝗙𝗿𝗲𝗲𝗱𝗼𝗺 𝗙𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗮𝗻 𝗘𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗗𝗶𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗿 𝗜𝘀 𝗡𝗼𝘁 𝗖𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗿𝗼𝗹

Bringing it all together, why recovery isn’t a behaviour or a diagnosis, but a return to internal safety, where control is no longer needed

In the mainstream model, recovery often becomes a cleaner version of the problem. We swap symptoms for strategies, distress for discipline, chaos for control, and it looks better on paper, but the internal experience hasn’t shifted, it’s just become more acceptable

We’re taught that healing means managing better, that success is about staying on the plan. That being recovered is about knowing the rules and following them. It's a nervous system that doesn’t yet feel safe without a plan

Control is not the opposite of disorder, it still says, something is wrong with me that needs managing, it still requires constant vigilance

It still operates from the idea that safety is something I must create through effort, not something I experience through connection

When safety was missing early in life, control often becomes a stand in, it creates a sense of order in an unpredictable world, it offers a role to play, a set of rules to master, and in that, it brings relief. So it’s not wrong, it’s intelligent, but it’s not freedom

𝗙𝗿𝗲𝗲𝗱𝗼𝗺 𝗱𝗼𝗲𝘀𝗻’𝘁 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝗻 𝗜’𝘃𝗲 𝗹𝗲𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗲𝗱 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝘁𝗼 𝗲𝗮𝘁 𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁
It means - I no longer need to micromanage my body to feel okay

𝗙𝗿𝗲𝗲𝗱𝗼𝗺 𝗱𝗼𝗲𝘀𝗻’𝘁 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝗻 𝗜 𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗯𝗶𝗻𝗴𝗲 𝗼𝗿 𝗿𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗶𝗰𝘁 𝗮𝗻𝘆𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲
It means - there is nothing in me that needs suppressing

𝗙𝗿𝗲𝗲𝗱𝗼𝗺 𝗱𝗼𝗲𝘀𝗻’𝘁 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝗻 𝗜’𝗺 𝗳𝗶𝗻𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝗶𝗻 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗿𝗼𝗹
It means - control is no longer necessary

Because when the body feels safe, truly, viscerally safe, there is no longer a compulsion to manage or fix or hide or perfect

- There is space
- There is fluidity
- There is presence

This is what the medical model misses, not because it’s malicious, but because it doesn’t know how to measure safety, it doesn’t know how to hold paradox, it doesn’t know what to do with healing that doesn’t track neatly on a chart

𝗛𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝘀𝗻’𝘁 𝗮 𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗿𝗶𝗰, 𝗶𝘁’𝘀 𝗮 𝗳𝗲𝗹𝘁 𝘀𝗲𝗻𝘀𝗲

You’ll know you’re healing not when you’ve stopped the behaviour, but when you can be with what the behaviour was protecting, when you no longer need the identity and when effort is replaced by ease

Not everyone will understand this, systems need symptoms to name, they need outcomes to prove

But inside your own experience, something quieter speaks, it knows the difference between performing safety and feeling it

That’s where this ends

If you’ve reached the limits of control-based recovery and want to explore healing in professional or personal capacity as a return to safety, not a strategy.... 𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝗡𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗼 𝗙𝗶𝘅 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗸𝘀𝗵𝗼𝗽 𝗶𝘀 𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗯𝗲𝗴𝗶𝗻𝘀

https://lnkd.in/ecGuwn2q

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟰: 𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝗧𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗮𝗽𝗶𝘀𝘁 𝗛𝗮𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝗛𝗲𝗮𝗹 𝗧𝗵𝗲𝗶𝗿 '𝗘𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗗𝗶𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗿' 𝗙𝗶𝗿𝘀𝘁Why knowledge and certifications don’t help if your own re...
22/01/2026

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟰: 𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝗧𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗮𝗽𝗶𝘀𝘁 𝗛𝗮𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝗛𝗲𝗮𝗹 𝗧𝗵𝗲𝗶𝗿 '𝗘𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗗𝗶𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗿' 𝗙𝗶𝗿𝘀𝘁

Why knowledge and certifications don’t help if your own relationship with food, body, and safety is still hidden behind performance (or addiction, relationships, debt, money, p**n etc etc)

It’s an uncomfortable truth, but we have to go here, because no amount of training can override the nervous system, mostly this is the issue in treatments for ed's, it goes silently unnoticed, never spoke about, and instead we look towards the clients as resistant, unwilling and not ready

You can sit in conferences, hold certifications, learn every framework about disordered eating, and still be relating to food, weight, shape, or health in a way that’s driven by fear. You can be praised for your professionalism while silently upholding the same control, rigidity, or avoidance that your clients are trying to survive

This isn’t a blame, it’s an invitation, would you take it?

Most therapists were not just trained in clinical models, they were trained to appear recovered

- To be the expert
- To hold it together
- To never let the wound show

But what if it’s the hiding that’s keeping us out of relationship?

You cannot co-regulate what you haven’t felt, you cannot hold safety for someone in the places you’ve refused to meet in yourself

And when your own eating disorder has been repackaged into control, professionalism, or performance, your presence becomes conditional, not healing

𝗔𝗻𝗱 𝗰𝗹𝗶𝗲𝗻𝘁𝘀 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹 𝗶𝘁

They may not say it, they may even thank you, but they will unconsciously adapt to your system, they will mirror your fragmentation, and then they’ll internalise the failure when healing doesn’t happen

Because the body knows when it’s being fixed, and it knows when it’s being met

This isn’t about being perfect. It’s not about having everything figured out, it’s about doing your own integration work with the same honesty you ask of your clients

You can’t teach safety if you’re still afraid of being seen
You can’t teach embodiment if you’re still leaving your body daily
You can’t teach freedom from food if control is still your coping

𝗬𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝘀𝘆𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗺 𝗶𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿𝘃𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻.

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If you are willing to show up for yourself, our next workshop will be an intro, or a deepening into this work, meeting yourself, there are around 7 places left.

https://lnkd.in/ecGuwn2q

Also if you are local and would like to join our 6 week live experience, starting Feb 24th send me a DM (cheshire area)

A 6-Week Introduction to Infinite Recovery, a guide to real freedom from addictionThis is not a course about stopping be...
21/01/2026

A 6-Week Introduction to Infinite Recovery, a guide to real freedom from addiction

This is not a course about stopping behaviours.

It is an exploration of what has been driving them.

Infinite Recovery is a non-pathologising, insight-led approach to addiction. It brings together spiritual understanding, somatic awareness, and deep self-honesty to reveal what has always been underneath the struggle.

Addiction is not a disease or a personal flaw.

It is an intelligent response to feeling unsafe, disconnected, or overwhelmed.

Over six live, in-person sessions, we will explore:

Week 1 – Intro / Foundations
Understanding addiction beyond labels and pathology.

Week 2 – Beyond Therapy and 12 Steps
What helps, what limits, and what has been missing.

Week 3 – The Answers Are Already Inside You
Why insight, not effort, restores choice.

Week 4 – What Does Spiritual Awakening Really Mean?
Clearing confusion and bypassing.

Week 5 – There Is No Recovery Without the Body
The nervous system, safety, and somatic truth.

Week 6 – The Healing Power of Relationships
Why connection changes everything.

This is not therapy.
It is not a technique.
It is not about fixing yourself.

It is a space to see clearly, reconnect with yourself, and allow change to happen naturally.

Open to anyone struggling with addiction, in recovery, or supporting someone who is and includes both the book and workbook for free.

📍 Location: MBBA, 52 Witton Street, Northwich, CW9 5AG
🗓 Dates: Tuesdays, starting 24th February (6 weeks)
⏰ Time: 7:00pm
💷 Cost: £10 per session link below.

If you are tired of fighting yourself, this is for you.

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21/01/2026

Most conflict, pain, and struggle come from mind-to-mind interaction ego meeting ego, identity clashing with identity.
This is the endless battle of one-upmanship, defensiveness, and separation.

But Soul to Soul Healing is different.

In this Infinite Recovery message, we explore what happens when we move beyond anger, aggression, and comparison and instead meet heart to heart.
When presence replaces ego.

When connection replaces control.
When healing begins not through knowing more but through being more.

Soul to soul healing allows us to see past behavior and into the heart of another human being.

It creates space for oneness, compassion, and true recovery beyond labels, stories, and the mind’s need to be right.

This is the foundation of the Infinite Recovery approach.

Learn more at: https://infiniterecoveryproject.com
Get my book on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/dp/1068323302

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟯: 𝗡𝗼𝘁 𝗘𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗪𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗮𝗻 𝗘𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗗𝗶𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗿 𝗪𝗮𝗻𝘁𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝗕𝗲 𝗦𝗲𝗲𝗻Why body positivity misses the point, and how visibility can...
21/01/2026

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟯: 𝗡𝗼𝘁 𝗘𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗪𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗮𝗻 𝗘𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗗𝗶𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗿 𝗪𝗮𝗻𝘁𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝗕𝗲 𝗦𝗲𝗲𝗻

Why body positivity misses the point, and how visibility can feel terrifying when disappearing was once protection

For many, especially those with a history of early relational trauma, visibility never felt safe. Love was unpredictable, connection came with pain, and attention often meant exposure or shame

𝗦𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗯𝗼𝗱𝘆 𝗯𝗲𝗰𝗮𝗺𝗲 𝗮 𝗯𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱𝗮𝗿𝘆

Weight gain kept others at a distance, thinness made you feel in control, food became a way to disappear, to numb, to vanish, to take up less space in a world that demanded too much

To the outside world, it looks like resistance, self-sabotage, shame....

But underneath, it’s intelligence, 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗮𝗹𝘄𝗮𝘆𝘀 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗰𝗲!

If your body became the battleground where you learned to be acceptable or invisible, then just love yourself isn’t helpful, it’s another violent instruction

Body positivity assumes visibility is neutral, but what if the real threat is being seen at all? the body will always go first

When love wasn’t safe, the nervous system made a trade, protection over connection

It learned to shut down, appease, hide, weight became armour, food became friend, control became safety

As Gabor Maté says, 𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝗾𝘂𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗶𝘀 𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 ‘𝘄𝗵𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗮𝗱𝗱𝗶𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻’ 𝗯𝘂𝘁 ‘𝘄𝗵𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗽𝗮𝗶𝗻?’

And the pain is often pre-verbal, in the wiring, in the body, not in words

Stephen Porges described neuroception as the body’s ability to detect threat without thought. If your system still registers presence as dangerous, no amount of cognitive reframing, affirmations, or hashtag empowerment will land

You can’t talk someone into feeling safe when their entire system is saying don’t let anyone close

This is why therapy that only focuses on behaviour, mindset, or food misses it, if we don’t honour the intelligence of the symptom, we end up trying to rip away someone’s life raft before they’ve even learned to swim

𝗛𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝘀 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗯𝗲𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘃𝗶𝘀𝗶𝗯𝗹𝗲

It’s about slowly creating the conditions where visibility no longer feels threatening

Where love no longer equals danger

Where being seen doesn’t mean losing yourself

𝗧𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲𝘀 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝗻 𝗮 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝗹 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝗻....

- It takes presence
- Capacity
- Time
- Relationship

So maybe the better question is “What happened that made disappearing the safest thing they could do?”

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𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟮: 𝗪𝗵𝘆 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗖𝗮𝗻’𝘁 𝗧𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝗬𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗪𝗮𝘆 𝗢𝘂𝘁 𝗼𝗳 𝗮𝗻 𝗘𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗗𝗶𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗿When the mind says one thing, but the nervous system is sti...
20/01/2026

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟮: 𝗪𝗵𝘆 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗖𝗮𝗻’𝘁 𝗧𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝗬𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗪𝗮𝘆 𝗢𝘂𝘁 𝗼𝗳 𝗮𝗻 𝗘𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗗𝗶𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗿

When the mind says one thing, but the nervous system is still in survival

Most people with eating disorders already know it’s not helping. They’ve had insights, read books, followed the food plans, tried the strategies, often they even know its not about food. The mind has had moments of clarity, they’ve even said, “I know what I’m doing isn’t rational,” and meant it....

But they still do it...

That’s not a lack of intelligence or knowledge, that’s not even addiction in the way we’ve been taught, that’s a body still stuck in protection

This is the failure point of so much therapy and recovery work, it stays in the realm of the mind, insight, and information, without ever reaching the place the real work lives, the body

You can’t think your way out of what the nervous system believes is still keeping you alive

Insight feels good, it gives relief, it explains, it creates a sense of coherence, but coherence isn’t healing

And healing doesn’t come because someone had a realisation, that’s just the beginning

Most people working with EDs are working with systems that are starving, not just nutritionally, but emotionally, relationally, and somatically, then wondering why results are poor

What Dan Siegel described as the brain wiring itself through experience, applies here. If the early wiring was survival based, built in threat, disconnection, or subtle shame, then the body keeps doing what it knows, shut down, strive, escape, control, restrict, binge, hide.

Even powerful spiritual teachings about thoughts and awareness often become bypasses, especially when used by therapists who haven’t explored the felt experience in their own bodies. Thought-based insight about emotions will never metabolise what the body never had safety to feel in the first place

Neuroception (Porges) teaches that 80% of our experience is bottom-up, sensory, unconscious, nervous-system-driven. Yet most therapy is top-down, that’s the mismatch

If you still think you are your thoughts, 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗵𝗮𝘀𝗻’𝘁 𝗯𝗲𝗴𝘂𝗻. Real healing begins when there’s enough capacity in the system to feel the truth of the moment, not narrate it

If you are not sure, try this:

Plan 3 minutes of thinking in advance, set a timer and only think those thoughts, and you’ll fail..

Because they’re not your thoughts, they’re arising....

So if the thought says, I’m broken, who’s watching the thought? and how does it know the contrast? if it knows broken, it must know whole too right?

𝗧𝗵𝗮𝘁’𝘀 𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗿𝘁𝘀, the one who sees, not the one who’s scared

Because the body isn’t confused, it’s protecting something. And until that’s met with presence, not technique, the behaviour will remain

Infinite Recovery Project is not just about trauma integration, it is about whole person perspective of self, that is both somatic, spiritual and relational

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19/01/2026

We’ve been taught that self worth is something you have to earn through success, appearance, productivity, or approval.
But what if self worth is an illusion created by conditioning, comparison, and unresolved trauma?

In this video, we explore why self worth doesn’t actually exist as something you can gain or lose and why chasing it never brings lasting peace. You don’t become worthy by doing more or fixing yourself. You are already enough simply because you exist.

This message isn’t about self-improvement.
It’s about removing the layers of judgment, conditioning, and identity that made you believe you were lacking in the first place.

When you stop chasing self worth, clarity emerges.
When the illusion drops, what remains is enoughness right here, right now.

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𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟭: 𝗘𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗗𝗶𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗿𝘀 𝗔𝗿𝗲 𝗡𝗼𝘁 𝗔𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗙𝗼𝗼𝗱Part 1 of 5 - A Weeklong Inquiry into the Roots of Disordered Eating and What ...
19/01/2026

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟭: 𝗘𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗗𝗶𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗿𝘀 𝗔𝗿𝗲 𝗡𝗼𝘁 𝗔𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗙𝗼𝗼𝗱

Part 1 of 5 - A Weeklong Inquiry into the Roots of Disordered Eating and What Really Heals

If you ask most people, including experts, what eating disorders are about, you’ll get the usual answers, food, control, trauma, body image or neurobiology

But food is never the problem, it’s the visible solution to something the person can’t yet name

Disordered eating is an intelligent adaptation, a way to regulate an experience that once felt unmanageable. Starvation, bingeing, purging, control, body size, shape obsession… these aren’t random behaviours. They are coping strategies, born from disconnection, from a body and mind that never felt safe enough to just be

When you grow up without safety, or learn that your needs are too much, your pain too loud, or your hunger, emotional or physical, is unwelcome… eventually, you stop asking for help. You turn inward, and that pain needs somewhere to go

And this is where modern psychology fails

The field has exploded with more theories, more certifications, more nuanced and complex frameworks, and yet healing outcomes haven’t improved. Because insight isn’t integration, knowing more about trauma doesn’t heal the part of you that still doesn’t feel safe, this is why being trauma informed will not help

Even if you’re a certified expert in eating disorders, what always reveals itself in the room with a client is this, you can only meet someone as deeply as you’ve met yourself

You may say all the right words, but if you’re still in a secret war with your body, with p**n, s*x, relationships, money, substances, if you haven’t gone into the dark places in yourself and found peace there, your presence can’t offer the safety they need. This isn’t an intellectual problem, this is a relational and identity wound at its core

Healing happens when someone is able to stay with the part that still needs the food, not to fix it, but to understand it, to see what it protects, what its role is...

That kind of presence can’t be trained, it comes through the work you’ve done on your knees, when the strategies no longer work and there’s nothing left to perform

The food, the body, the control become the containers for the unspoken, the survival patterns of ed's are often the last to be surrendered, because they hide deep wounds

For me, that moment came after 20 years of surgeries, 300kg gained and lost, secret binges, diets, therapy, and multiple 12-step fellowships at once, all while being a professional therapist specialising in ED's and Addiction. And nothing changed until I stopped trying to fix it all, and began meeting what it had protected me from

Incidentally, that’s when my clients began healing too...

So no, eating disorders are not about food....
𝗧𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝘄𝗵𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝗮𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝘂𝗿𝘃𝗶𝘃𝗲

Let me know if this resonates or you’d like to be tagged in the full series

more tomorrow

𝗪𝗵𝘆 𝗘𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗗𝗶𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗿 𝗥𝗲𝗰𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆 𝗦𝘁𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗙𝗮𝗶𝗹𝘀 𝗦𝗼 𝗠𝗮𝗻𝘆 - 𝟱 𝗣𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝗦𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗲𝘀(And Why They’re Still So Hard to Heal)Eating disorders ...
18/01/2026

𝗪𝗵𝘆 𝗘𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗗𝗶𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗿 𝗥𝗲𝗰𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆 𝗦𝘁𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗙𝗮𝗶𝗹𝘀 𝗦𝗼 𝗠𝗮𝗻𝘆 - 𝟱 𝗣𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝗦𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗲𝘀
(And Why They’re Still So Hard to Heal)

Eating disorders are still some of the most misunderstood and mistreated forms of suffering, both in clinical spaces and in the wider world

Even with decades of research, awareness campaigns, new diagnoses, and more protocols than ever before, the outcomes haven’t improved much

Many people technically recover, but they still feel at war with their body, still live in fear around food, still don’t feel free. Or they just shift the pain elsewhere, from restriction to control, from bingeing to business, from food to s*x, or love, or p**n, or work

And the problem isn’t that they’re not trying hard enough

It's that the field is still asking the wrong questions

This is a 5-part series on what eating disorders really are, why they’re so complex to heal, and how well-meaning treatments often miss the mark by focusing on behaviour without looking at the function of that behaviour

This series is to give clarity on the whole subject from different angles

We’ll explore:

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟭: Eating Disorders Are Not About Food

Why the issue isn’t calories, control, or cravings - but the body’s intelligence trying to keep you safe when nothing else could

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟮: You Can’t Think Your Way Out of a Starving Nervous System

How mindset tools and emotional insight often backfire when the body is still stuck in survival mode

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟯: Not Everyone With an Eating Disorder Wants to Be Seen

Why body positivity misses the point, and how being visible can feel terrifying when disappearing has been your protection

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟰: The Therapist Has to Heal Their Eating Disorder First

Why knowledge and certifications don’t help if your own relationship with food, body, and safety is still hidden behind performance

𝗗𝗮𝘆 𝟱: Freedom From an Eating Disorder Is Not Control

Bringing it all together - why recovery isn’t a behaviour or a diagnosis, but a return to internal safety, where control is no longer needed

This isn’t about adding another theory, it’s about removing what’s in the way

This week is for clinicians, seekers, survivors, and anyone who knows the pain of trying to fix what was never broken in the first place

I spent 37+ years starting at 5 years old battling with my body to extremes of over 300kg gained and lost, multiple cosmetic surgeries to fix my outside, every extreme diet and fitness routine I could find, nothing worked to the point where I had no idea what a meal looked like, how much or how little to eat, steroids, ped's, supplements and more...now I am totally free, I am not bound by any food or idea or body image, I can eat what I like I can choose what I want, I am free, I have also worked with clients with ED's for 25 years, from inside my struggle to being free of it

We start tomorrow

𝗟𝗲𝘁 𝗺𝗲 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝗯𝗲𝗹𝗼𝘄 𝗶𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝘁𝗮𝗴𝗴𝗲𝗱 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗲𝘀

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