12/01/2025
Coming back down to earth after a very high energy weekend. Lots of socialising and movement, all for the highest good but my body was craving some solitude on the mat.
Anger was an emotion I was quite familiar with for a long time (masculine energy). I always felt more dominated by masculine energy throughout life and had never felt safe to let my feminine energy bloom.
A friend has been persistent recently in reminding me of my feminine energy and constantly prompting me when I was being over masculine, I like to think I’m quite self aware so I’m unsure if it was denial or fear or feelings of unworthiness as to why I denied my feminine energy for such a long time. Anyway I’ve been slowly tapping into it, steady away - I even wore pink 🤣 (humour is my way of dealing with a lot of things)
The more time I’ve put aside for my feminine energy - the louder the calls have cried, from the slow and steady work I’ve put in on myself, my own intuition has been able to poke me when it can to be feminine.
For example tonight - I got on my mat, I was feeing very frustrated with myself for a few things that I’ve reflected on from the weekend. I made a cacao, got on the mat ready to pump it out through yoga and dance, my usual routine that I follow wasn’t working, couldn’t find candles, lighter broke, couldn’t find another lighter - so I paused and thought I’m being guided towards something different here.
I sat with myself, put my hands on my heart and the word forgiveness came into my mind. So I began forgiving myself for everything that I was frustrated at.
For example I forgive myself for missing an important appointment I should have went to and I told my higher self that in the future I will ensure that I make time for my health & wellbeing. And just like that, I felt instantly lighter, so I continued, and after 10 minutes with some meditation music and sage burning, I’d forgiven myself for a lot of stuff that I was angry at myself for.
It’s a full moon tomorrow, if anyone is struggling with energy levels but would like to set some time aside for themselves, give this a little go, I promise it will help 💞