Me, Myself and Cancer

27/05/2026

It's been a little while since I posted on here, but with me, that's usually a good thing. People often say that living with cancer is a journey, but isn't all life a journey, full of ups and downs. I guess life with cancer can just feel more... fragile (terrifying would also work here).

I've just come out of a really tough period. I've always responded well to treatment, but when my cancer spread again to my abdominal wall, I wasn't able to complete the rounds of chemo I was told were needed to get things back under control.

When you have stage 4 cancer, control can become really important. For a start, any treatment isn't curative, it's there to try and control the disease while hopefully extending your life. Inevitably then, there's a certain amount of fear that comes with living with cancer.

It's important never give in to that fear though. When we're afraid, we can stop living and I don't know about you, but all I want to do is live. If you're not careful, those dark and intrusive thoughts can easily control you. How many of you have spiralled into panic. It doesn't have to be that way though. A good life with stage 4 cancer is possible.

Last week we went to Majorca for a family holiday. It wasn't something that has even been on my bucket list, it was just something that we all needed because this year had been hard for all of us - everyone affected by cancer can have their own personal struggles - and I had the most magical time because I was with the people who matter to me most. The people who make every day better just by being in my life.

I've also done a lot of writing lately and you can often find me in a local Costa drinking coffee and typing. I'm hoping to release a book soon about my cancer story and my children's book should be ready before that which is so exciting. I'm also on writing my second book which will describe my life with mental health. These take up a lot of time, but they're important to me, and my legacy.

Living life is what keeps me going. Family is what drives me to live. Make no mistake, finding out that you have cancer can be life-changing. The constant stream of emotions, the fear of leaving too soon... its also an opportunity to find out what's important to you and live life your way.

Maintaining a good quality of life is possible. Yes, there are times when things go wrong but I try to stay positive. When that doesn't work, I find that accepting the situation is healthier. Resisting only makes things worse whereas acknowledging your true feelings reduces emotional distress and helps you move forward. Your emotions don't have to define you. It's okay to feel down. Just be honest.

I'll try not to leave it so long next time 😊 I'm much better at posting when things aren't going well ha-ha

Jim xx

07/05/2026

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I’ve received this message today. I have lots of followers so hopefully I can get some signatures on this petition.

Natasha lost her daughter Amy to cancer, and she has started this petition - called Because of Amy Law - calling for better GP training to recognise cancer “red flag” symptoms earlier.

It’s all about improving awareness and helping people get the right diagnosis sooner. No blame - just trying to make something positive come from something heartbreaking.

This is something I can relate to because I presented with symptoms of oesophageal cancer for two or three years prior to my diagnosis which my GP failed to spot. By the time they did an endoscopy, the cancer had already spread.

Natasha has been sharing it across social media, but we really need a helping hand to get it seen by more people.

If you’d be open to sharing it, even just a quick mention, it would honestly mean the world to us.

Here’s the link:
"https://petition.parliament.uk/petitions/765360" (https://petition.parliament.uk/petitions/765360)

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this, I really appreciate it.

Jim

We ask the Government to mandate cancer training for all GPs in England, requiring all GPs to complete mandatory, standardised training on cancer red-flag symptoms, with formal assessment, regular revalidation, NHS England regulation, and GMC linkage to improve early diagnosis.

25/04/2026

So, the assisted dying bill failed. It makes me so angry. As someone living with terminal cancer I do think about what my death will be like. I don't dwell on it, but it's impossible not to at least throw a cursory glance in that direction from time to time. And it isn't a pretty sight.

WARNING: Contains descriptions of death and dying that some might find upsetting.

Dying from cancer can (not always) be a profound, often difficult, physical and emotional process. I've seen it too many times now. The body gradually shuts down. You stop eating. You can be in significant pain. Become confused. Agitated. You can lose control of your bowels and bladder. You will feel lots of different emotions. It all sounds very upsetting and I didn't want that for me or my family, especially my young daughter. Hospice care, in the UK at least, are not all identical. Many provide high-quality end of life care, but many are inadequate depending on funding, location, and staffing.

I know there are a lot of considerations to be made. Perhaps too many. Adequate safeguards need to be built in, and it will never be perfect, but I feel really let down by our demographic system after the initial hope of it becoming law.

For decades, Switzerland had allowed a doctor to help severely ill patients end their lives with medication, or the ‘right to die’ in a controlled way. Patients must show they are mentally competent and have not been pushed toward the decision by anyone with an ulterior motive. The procedure includes a lengthy evaluation of medical information and at least two face-to-face meetings with a doctor. At least one British citizen per week travels to Switzerland for an assisted death.

Hopefully another attempt is made to introduce the proposals in the next session of Parliament, which will begin on 13 May. Right now I feel a mixture of feeling extremely disappointed and upset and also quite angry.

Jim xx

14/04/2026

What a day. There's so much beauty in the world 😍 I'm so grateful to still be having experiences like this. When I was told I might have as little as 3 months to live (over 70% of patients die within 3 months of my cancer diagnosis) I felt... how can you feel when you hear that. Now, three years later I'm still making wonderful new memories. Never give up xx

13/04/2026

Finally. Tomorrow we ride the far north railway line from Inverness to Thurso, the most northerly train stations in Britain. It's meant to be one of the most beautiful stretches of scenery in the country and its been on my bucket list for a while now.

When you're living with terminal cancer, a bucket list can be a great way to ensure you don't stop living life and to fill your life with new experiences. It doesn't have to be exotic, or even exciting, just be honest with yourself about what's important to you.

Personally, this has come at a good time for me after months of things going wrong. I don't feel like I've really got going this year and my quality of life has suffered. Hopefully this is the start of something altogether more stable and positive 😀

11/04/2026

As someone living with terminal cancer, I've learned to live with a torrent of overwhelming emotions. Some Good. Some bad. Often at the same time.

These past few months I've been through so many difficult and challenging experiences that it feels a good time to check in with my emotions and see how I'm coping mentally. It's one way I manage my resilience, which has definately taken a beaten lately.

You can read all about this on my latest blog post here and join thousands of readers around the world. I'm grateful for all your support as always. Jim xx

This post reflects on the challenges of living with cancer and addresses the emotional and physical struggles. The importance of acknowledging feelings and adapting to life’s changes is also …

03/04/2026

I'm a free man 😀 I actually got out of hospital yesterday and it was so nice to sleep in my own bed! Each hospital stay, and they are wracking up these days, seems to get harder.

One of the reasons for this is that, and more so since I've been living with a terminal illness, I don't like to be away from my family too much. I can accept being in hospital when I'm being treated but there seems to be a lot of wasted days.

This time I was in for six days and something only really happened on day five when I had my colonoscopy and they started me back on high-dose steroids. I had a few bags of fluid on the other days. Nothing more. Naturally, I asked to leave ha

The colonoscopy showed some quite nasty inflamation. No wonder I've been feeling so bad. The biopsy confirmed ulcerative colitis, another life-long condition I'll have to manage. Of course, we don't know how long my life will be. But then, no one ever knows so not worth thinking about. Today, I'm alive. That's all that's important. They're starting me on some tablets. More medication. Yippee.

I also saw my oncologist yesterday for the results of my latest CT Scan. This was going to tell us if the new cancer spread was stable or not. It felt like there was so much resting on it, especially since I haven't been able to have any treatment and this weeks also had to be cancelled. The third cycle in a row.

The good news is that the cancer is behaving itself. Good boy. What a relief. The better news is my oncologist has decided that I dont need the chemo right now. That's music to my ears. It's gonna give my body chance to recover and hopefully I can enjoy life a bit more, and Scotland. Plus, might be able to book Naples, Italy now.

Bad times are a big part of living with cancer, but you have to believe that another good spell is around the corner. Never lose hope. Today, we decided to come into Durham for fish and chips, it is good Friday afterall, and a trip to the cathedral, one of the best in my opinion. I even treated myself to a new walking stick and a vinyl record. Yes, I still listen to records. Life is what you make of it, and while I don't feel great, today has been a real boost 😊

Happy Easter. Jim xx

01/04/2026

Since I have time on my hands, I got around to writing a new blog post which you can read here. I'll provide an update tomorrow on where things stand after I've spoken to my oncologist

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Here I discuss the struggles of living with cancer and feeling trapped, as well as the desire to participate in life actively because, despite challenges, I seek joy and purpose.

28/03/2026

Look who just showed up 😂

27/03/2026

Hi all. I've been meaning to post for a while now but there's been so much going on, none of it good, that it just never seemed to happen.

Living with terminal cancer can be bloody hard, make no mistake about it. There's times when things are going okay, and times when they're not. I'm in an extended phase of the latter. Everything is being thrown and me one after the other, and it does wear you down. It's okay to admit that.

I'm back in hospital. Inflamation or infection. We don't know which yet. I wonder will I catch a break and yet, I do know that these things tend to be temporary. They will be resolved. I just have to remind myself of that and be kind to myself and to know it isn't possible to be upbeat all the time. That isn't what living well with cancer is about.

There will be times you cope and times you don't. That's healthy. It's where you want to be. Can't be down all the time but you also need to allow yourself to process what is happening. I know my will isn't broken. It will return when I need it. Believe in yourself. It's much easier to cope when what you have to cope with is manageable.

I haven't got a picture of me in hospital so, here's one of me at Durham Botanic Gardens, one of my favourite places. It was taken at the weekend. I wasn't feeling great but I made myself go out and be surrounded by nature in the sun. There was some haha Perfect. Those are the moments I cherish

Jim xx

12/03/2026

Another Thursday, another delay of my chemotherapy. My bloods came back and haemoglobin is too low to have the treatment so I need a blood transfusion. I've had one before so it's no big deal.

Not only that, but on Monday I started with a rash all over my body. It's so itchy, enough to drive you to despair. Honestly, it's been a lot to cope with and it's always okay to admit that. I'm doing my best and that's good enough right now. I know these things are only temporary.

It's taking some getting through these cycles, but cancer treatment doesn't always go as planned. You need to adapt to these changing situations and accept them. No good fighting what you can't win. Focus on what you can control.

At least it explains why I've been sleeping so much, and why it took me best part of an hour and a half to put up a shelf today. I had to rest after each of the four brackets. Still, I managed it. Small wins. We also went out for coffee but I forgot to take a photo so you get a photo of me as a child instead haha I was smiling then too. I loved that plane 😀

Jim xx