28/04/2026
On my quest to recover from burnout and calm my nervous system down.
I've spent most of my month off observing more and doing less. But what does that actually mean?
✅️ Asking and allowing others to help me
✅️ No directed goals other than doing what my body needs in the moment. I have slept so much and left plans early when in pain or exhausted, instead of struggling on.
✅️ Putting my phone down, not constantly working and being available.
✅️ Feeling anxious, then thinking back a few steps and noticing what I had been doing, who I was around and what time it was. I noticed that standing in one specific area of my dining room gives me heart palpitations - where I used to keep my day job work laptop.
✅️ Sitting in nature every day, for hours. My mind is best outside. I have been given the chance to day dream, to look at but not heavily analyse my thoughts. It's been interesting, not always comfortable.
I still have a long way to go in recovery. I've realised it wasn't a case of losing myself or not knowing who I am or what I want. I've always been quite sure of that. It was more about giving far too much to others and just existing in my own world. I wasn't nurturing my beautiful life. A life I battled so hard to get.
So May will be filled with not just existing but actually living.
❤