10/01/2026
Working on ourselves to release past trauma and deeply hidden emotions is so important… but also hard.
So I thought I’d share a little bit of me. I had high anxiety around being alone or walking alone into public places. This anxiety came about through many things, but I think one of the big things was being able to hide behind my children… I was never alone, there was always a baby, toddler, child in tow. 7 years ago and re-entering the dating scene, I was meeting someone for a date. I had been open enough to say “I can’t walk in there on my own” so he kindly agreed to meet me outside. I was still a nervous wreck but at least I wasn’t walking into the pub on my own. This was something I wanted to overcome, feel comfortable and confident to do.
A year ago I posted about some of the training on my diploma and that my challenge for the evening had been to go and sit in a pub I knew well, but on my own. I did it. And continued to do this.
Today, My youngest son had his first pilot school lesson with other children. He has been out of formal education for over 3 years, so this was a big deal for him. It wasn’t local and I had work I needed to finish. So I found myself a pub (a proper local where everyone knows everyone), went in ordered a glass of wine and sat with my laptop working.
For some this may seem like a normal thing to do, but without the healing I have done for myself and overcoming my own anxieties I would have sat in my car for the afternoon…. And as an added bonus I have found a great pub to sit in every other week when G has school!
