
29/06/2025
Walking through the still-sleeping village, I could feel the familiar tension in my jaw. Teeth that wanted to gnash but were so well socialised that all their unspent energy travelled instead to my hands, clenched and ready - for what, a brawl with a passing pigeon?
What, you might wonder then, was causing such tightness and inner agro. My friend, I’ll let you into a little secret. It might surprise you but here we go…
Was the object of all the inner teeth gnashing and fist balling an annoying family member, or perhaps the latest antics of some cruel and heinous world leader, or even the van driver who came round the corner so fast he nearly took my toes with him. Forgive me, I’m delaying. No, no, it was none of these, it was quite simply - me.
As this bombshell landed I felt my body start to relax. I laughed. How foolish, how human. Here I was again, making myself wrong.
This time it was my feelings that I’d unwittingly brought judgement down upon. In my head I wasn’t allowed to feel sad, not on a beautiful day like this, strolling down the hill for a sea dip at dawn. How ungrateful of me to be feeling sad!
But in catching myself I realised that pushing my sadness away I was creating an inner battle. I was literally fighting life.
The sadness needed me to feel it. Not to polish it up or push it down. Like anything alive it just wanted to be known, given breath. As soon as I did everything shifted.
The shoulders dropped (hadn’t even noticed them lift), the legs moved more freely and my heart lightened. Not so difficult really, but somehow so easy to forget.
I don’t have all the answers by any means but this not fighting life, this allowing ourselves to be as and who we are is at the heart of all that I do and believe to be true. It’s through liberating feeling and honouring our truths that we free not only ourselves but those around us too. I wonder what is it that you can give some space to today? What is it that you’ve pushed away that wants a little of your time and inner kindness?