26/01/2022
WHAT IS Bipolar disorder? It is a constant, internal war. You’re fighting hard to conjure a balance in a world rid of stability. It’s a chemical imbalance, exacerbated by environmental triggers. It is unpredictable, and can be a lifelong struggle.
Kyle was diagnosed with Bipolar I disorder.
When he entered a manic episode, his mind would constantly be buzzing with exciting and optimistic ideas. Even with a lack of sleep, Kyle did not want to stop. His energy was off the roof. Dominating every conversation whilst speaking to his friends, Kyle would speak fast and switch topics quickly, making it hard for others to keep up with him.
Sometimes Kyle couldn’t keep up with himself.
You could break Kyle’s phone and he’d say, “ey, all the more reason to buy a new one!” Impulsivity, check. Invincibility, check. Whilst this may be confusing for friends and family, for the person living with bipolar, this may seem like a great time.
With Kyle however, as his mania elevated, so did the anxiety, excessive sweating, and irritation. He felt the adrenaline rising throughout his body, and to release that pent up energy, he would over-exercise to the point of exhaustion. His confidence was also a downfall. Kyle made bold decisions on the whim and often regretted his actions once the mania had subsided.
When the mania burnt out, Kyle had nothing left. He may have periods experiencing a ‘normal’ mood, but otherwise he’d be placed on the complete opposite end of the spectrum.
The lows of depression, like rock-climbing to the very top and plummeting to the ground, sunk in deep and fast.
During this period, Kyle wants to be left alone. It’s not that he wants to be by himself, but rather, he wants everyone to disappear. He doesn’t want to go anywhere, see anyone or do anything. He feels as if no matter what he does, people call him names, and tell him that he’s doing something wrong. The easiest thing to do then is just hide.
The worst thing for Kyle is hearing the words, “cheer up”, or “what happened to the happy Kyle?” It’s frustrating for him. Nothing is enjoyable. It’s like being crammed in the tube full of angry people and not being able to escape. The pent up frustration and sadness create a pessimistic view of the world. He doesn’t like to envision the future because all he sees is hardship, endless work and disappointment - “what even is the point?”.
To worry about your loved one is completely normal. You may be afraid of their actions during an emotional low, or worried about them making reckless decisions during periods of high.
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You have to remember that people with this disorder cannot control their emotions or moods. Avoid sensitive and ignorant comments such as “get a grip” or “cheer up”, offer practical help without being patronizing. Just, let them know you’re there to help in any way you can.
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