13/01/2026
The most profound thing to ever, ever happen for me was to become a Mother.
My story started really rocky, a 27 hr labour back to back dry shoulder dystocia for the full 6 minutes. Resussed, SCBU for 6 days.
When we finally came out of the hospital my FIL passed away suddenly.
I had actually started grieving for Rory in the hospital, because I didn't know what was going to happen, I was in a ward with women and their babies. Me laying there with no baby, no update. To then come out and everything be OK (ish) and have to grieve and support my husband and family... naturally I developed post natal depression. Due to the traumatic birth and trauma outside of that I couldn't breastfeed either.
I felt like such a failure.
But now. Now. Its my greatest success of my life.
Fast forward 17 years, as a mother I made it my mission to have my kids at the forefront of wellbeing, mentally, physically and spiritually.
For us that looked like home cooked foods, reducing UPF, no fake sugars, outdoor time ALOT. It meant teaching them boundaries and to question everything..even with us. π
NOW THEY ARE TEENAGERS.
They make their own choices.
Parenting is a wild ride and so far I'm so grateful I chose to give them my all, for us to.make changes in our lives to live by our means and home ed, give them experiences, and be fairly well travelled and have untold lost skills.
I've read a lot about child development, the brain and how it develops through the stages. What is beneficial, and the balance of modern life vs the slower pace of how our childhoods were.
I've made choices that people scoff at, that people would class as over protective. Which is mad because out of all the things, protective of our offspring is paramount.
It's so short. Childhood is such a short time. I'm not missing one single bit.