15/12/2025
Which one are you?
My family, friends and many of my clients know exactly which one I am, because I talk with my clients about discovering in my maintenance how important it was coming to terms with this for me.
As far back as I can remember, I had wanted to be one of the confident girls, wishing I was popular with lots of friends.
Instead, I felt on the periphery, never knowing quite what to say, awkward in social situations, shy.
It took a parents Xmas party, when Ellie was at infant school, to finally shock me into self-acceptance.
Along we went, me VERY reluctantly, but going because I felt I 'should'. These people weren't my people AT ALL, but I still had this voice in my head telling me I should be like by everyone - SO CRAZY!
The host had a chat with me, and me being me, who doesn't do small talk, prefers a deeper conversation, tried to have a deeper conversation, probably rather naively, but hey ho 🤷♀️
The host looked at me after a few minutes, abruptly ending the conversation and moving on with the immortal lines "you are very gauche Sonia"
I have never forgotten those words, was extremely hurt at the time, and then, and then....decided to accept myself exactly as I was! Gauche and all! The few close friends I have love me for my deeper qualities, my introverted nature, and it was time I loved that part of me too. He did me the biggest favour ever!
Which are you? 1 or 2? And for you love being that?
