Carol Hickson Mental Health

Carol Hickson Mental Health Building resilience through transformational therapy and life coaching

One of the questions that people often ask me is “why am I so tired even when I rest?”.  I thought I’d answer that quest...
03/04/2026

One of the questions that people often ask me is “why am I so tired even when I rest?”. I thought I’d answer that question whilst also appreciating this fabulous photograph I took of a double rainbow over my greenhouse as today is .

It’s true that rest for many of us is elusive. So many of us seem to be in constant state of exhaustion. We sleep poorly, we have little capacity for stressors and, we succumb to every illness that does the rounds as our immune systems are running on empty.

We find ourselves over-reacting and under-achieving and at the back of our minds we promise ourselves that things will be different once we get some rest. But, what has this got to do with rainbows?

Traditionally, rainbows bring promise of sunshine after the rain, of hope and of a better world if we are only prepared to search over the rainbow. We're rarely encouraged to stop and enjoy the rainbow. Instead, we’re brought up to chase whatever lies over the rainbow.

What would change if the moment we saw a rainbow we took it as a cue to stop? If we taught our children to pause and reconnect with something infinitely bigger than we are? If we learnt to acknowledge that the beauty was in the moment and weren't instantly distracted by what might be waiting for us over the mountain?

Would we get a better quality of rest? I wonder?

And did you know that many experts believe there are at least 7 types of rest?

To find out more about the best types of rest and to finish reading the remainder of this blog please go to the link in the comments below.

I'm helping a client to do a life audit and it got me thinking.If there was one area of your life that could do with a b...
23/03/2026

I'm helping a client to do a life audit and it got me thinking.
If there was one area of your life that could do with a bit of improvement, what would it be?
Mine would be health.
It doesn't have to be a complete overhaul, it could be regular 1% improvements.
What would be yours?
ps. Spidey says just reading my book helps him 😂

I’m late to posting about International Woman’s Day because I’m just back from a retreat with a group of amazing women. ...
08/03/2026

I’m late to posting about International Woman’s Day because I’m just back from a retreat with a group of amazing women. I’m going to be posting all week about them because they might just have changed my life this weekend.

Today though there is one woman who I need to embarrass, I mean honour, my wonderful daughter Rebecca Hickson. My heart aches for you and all the s..t you are dealing with but it soars at how flipping proud I am of you. What a woman!

Rebecca is back in hospital for the third time in six weeks.Rebecca was readmitted to hospital at 10pm last night after ...
03/03/2026

Rebecca is back in hospital for the third time in six weeks.

Rebecca was readmitted to hospital at 10pm last night after being discharged on Friday against our wishes (without the promised pain relief, and less than 24- hours after a anaesthetised procedure). I won’t go into detail today but yesterday evening I had to flag our safety concerns to the sister in charge of the hospital, after a seven hour wait in A and E, and only then did they allow her morphine, and the CT scan which she should have had on arrival at A and E.

The whole system at this particular hospital is shambolic and we’re taking advice as to whether we need to raise a serious safety concern.

This isn’t the news I wanted to share after six weeks of incredible pain, she deserves better. As does every sick person in this country.

Day 13 of Rebecca’s 2nd hospital stay this year and she’s gone down for a very uncomfortable procedure this morning, but...
26/02/2026

Day 13 of Rebecca’s 2nd hospital stay this year and she’s gone down for a very uncomfortable procedure this morning, but hopefully it will give the doctors the information they need. As usual chaos over calm presided. On a video call home Rebecca tried to stay above it all but it’s hard when everybody around is reactive rather than quietly prepared. The patient seems to always be an afterthought.

I’ve not been allowed to see her as her ward has been shut for nine days due to norovirus in the hospital. It’s hard to not be with her when she’s in so much pain.

She is the bravest person I know and I love her so much.

A picture of us in early Jan, three weeks before this nightmare began.

We lost our little French girl cat Jayd today, so many memories after 19 years with her.  Feeling heartbroken ###
06/02/2026

We lost our little French girl cat Jayd today, so many memories after 19 years with her. Feeling heartbroken ###

I truly hoped I wouldn’t need to do a third post about our ongoing NHS experience.  The truth is it’s terrifying what we...
04/02/2026

I truly hoped I wouldn’t need to do a third post about our ongoing NHS experience. The truth is it’s terrifying what we’re going through.

My daughter is home after 8 days in hospital under three different teams including the last two days under the "older people" team typically for people aged 75+, she’s 36.

Prior to discharge and since coming home (4 days ago) she has been told:

1. Friday/discharge day: We’re not 100% sure but we think you need gall bladder removal. So surgery then? Maybe.

2. Thursday/day prior to discharge: You have absolutely NO infection present.

3. Monday/3 days post discharge: Text from GP following a letter they received from the hospital: you have a serious infection which will require antibiotics and regular check ups for the rest of your life.

4. Monday/3 days post discharge: Information uploaded to her NHS app, no mention of the infection in number 3 but you have a different infection.

She’s at home on the sofa and still ill. She’s spoken to seven people at the hospital in the last two days. You’re ill? Well I can’t help you so let me transfer you to a colleague who will tell you that they can’t help you either.

Given that she’s still in pain and medicated why not ask the GP for help? Surely if data has potentially been compromised they’d want to get to the bottom of it? Well no actually, the GP told her that she wouldn’t help her chase this misinformation and if she was concerned she would have to do it herself, all the GP felt was in her remit was to prescribe the antibiotics that the hospital had requested. Despite my daughter saying that she categorically had not had any of the 3 tests which identify these infections. But surely the GPs secretary could have chased on their patient’s behalf? Apparently not.

Having spoken to multiple people at the hospital including a consultant she has been told these are your results because it’s your name and address on the letter from gastro dept. When queried several times because during her 8 days in hospital, at no point did anyone mention biopsy to us, nobody collected a stool sample and nobody did a breath test they finally admitted this morning that there is nothing in her actual test results to indicate that she had any of the above mentioned tests and neither was the infection showing in her bloodwork. So these aren’t her results? We don’t know. You’ll have to make your own arrangements to be tested.

So it’s okay for a young woman to go through surgery she may or may not need despite the fact that an infection may ( or may not!) be causing her pain. But depending on who you speak to at the NHS she does or doesn't have this infection, and each person is not the right person to speak to about getting the infection tests done. So should she proceed with the referral to have her gallbladder removed? Medically, we don’t know for sure.

It’s okay to tell her that she may or may not have an infection that will have to be monitored for the rest of her life, and which could result in cancer, on the basis of nothing?

It’s okay for a person who is ill and in pain to try to fight her way through the maze of your collective incompetency? Do you actually care that your mistakes and lack of ownership might be contributing to a greater health issue in the future?

Seriously I am furious at the moment. And the worst thing? Nobody she has spoken to seems to want to help her get to the bottom of this. The message is very loud and it’s very clear, you’re on your own.

NHS and every individual involved in this s**t show you ought to be ashamed.

I’ve been sat at my daughter’s hospital bed for the last three days watching the good, the bad, and all the inconsistenc...
26/01/2026

I’ve been sat at my daughter’s hospital bed for the last three days watching the good, the bad, and all the inconsistencies in between, in the NHS. With my professional hat on this is what I’ve been thinking. We’re losing the NHS to ruinous empathy.

When I wrote the other day about the lack of basic care and the frustrations of being on the patient side of things the post went viral. The thing is as a country we care about the NHS. We’ve all grown up with it, some of us have had our babies through it and it’s hard to see something so important deteriorating.
There were lots of comments of NHS staff past and present all saying the same thing and pretty much all agreeing with me.
It made me realise how hard it must be when everybody has an opinion on the place you work at.

There are things we can’t change like the number of people putting pressure on the system. Or that the Covid pandemic changed the system irrevocably. But what can we change? And how can we show support to staff who are doing their best? Because even in this one hospital it’s like chalk and cheese.
My daughter’s ward experience and care currently are in another league to the treatment she received for the first 24 hours. She’s still ill, she’s still in pain but it’s clear she’s being listened to and she’s definitely being fed and watered.

Part of my job is to train managers to give honest feedback as soon as possible after a problem arises. Feedback is free business consultancy if you give it, and accept it, without getting emotional. And what I’ve realised sitting here is that the NHS is being ruined by “ruinous empathy”. People are avoiding the truth.

Ruinous empathy is staying quiet to be kind, or because you don’t have a solution, or because you don’t want to have a conversation that makes you feel uncomfortable, or because you don’t have the capacity or energy to deal with the problem so you put off doing anything and you ultimately cause more harm.

Imagine your employee is doing badly. You’ve had some complaints about the standard of their work or their attitude. You don’t want to upset them by speaking to them. You know they have stuff going on at home as well. Anyway it’s easier if you just do it yourself. Have you ever thought or done that? I have. The work still needs doing so instead you work late to tidy it up for them and then it happens a few more times. Perhaps, then somebody else flags it and you realise that you now have to put them on performance review. You knew it was coming, they didn’t. Now they’re confused and upset. Now they feel let down. Why didn’t you tell me? Is everyone talking behind my back? Remember you didn’t want to upset them in the first place but you felt uncomfortable speaking to them when you could have nipped it in the bud and given honest feedback. Now they’re angry and embarrassed. Perhaps they’ll even resign. That’s ruinous empathy.

Ruinous empathy feels nicer or easier at the time but usually leads to long term damage.

When the government talk constantly about “our NHS” they do so to deflect criticism from the public. Have you noticed they do it all the time? That’s ruinous empathy. They don’t want to discuss the reality so they guilt trip us by adding “our” which creates emotional ownership like when we talk of family. Adding the “our” blurs who is responsible for the decline. It shifts the blame onto the public and I agree there’s an element of poor decisions made by the public but it’s not the crux of the problem. It deflects attention away from poor government and poor NHS leadership choices.

Or they say our nurses are working hard and they are but the problems go way beyond any one staff group. By bringing up the nurses constantly they’re trying to stop us complaining by making it feel like we’re personally attacking the nurses. We’re not. Individually most nurses are great. It’s the organisation that’s not.

And two things can be true at the same time. On the one hand the organisation can be in trouble and on the other we know and understand that a lot of good hardworking people work there.

I don’t claim to have answers to the big questions but I do know that deflecting meaningful conversations is a deliberate tactic to avoid those in control having to be held accountable.

So how do we stop ruinous empathy destroying the NHS? What are the difficult conversations you think we need to have? And what will it take for the government to step up?

This isn’t a post to knock the NHS but it is my observations of some of the simple things that seem to be going wrong an...
24/01/2026

This isn’t a post to knock the NHS but it is my observations of some of the simple things that seem to be going wrong and it’s based solely on the last four days. I’m not looking to upset people either so apologies if I do. I’m also not looking to argue for or against the viability of the NHS.

It’s also a bit rambly and I make no apologies for that I’m scared. I’m scared for my daughter and I’m scared for myself.

On Wednesday I had a respiratory appointment and finally had a chest X-ray both of which I’ve been waiting a year for, in that time my left side symptoms (which I’ve had for two years) have been left to worsen. I was given no indication of next steps.

On Thursday I had a mammogram. It was cancelled four times in 2025 by the NHS, and I had to insist this month that I had to have it done due to the pain I am experiencing in my left breast. So it’s been finally done at my insistence and I will definitely be chasing the results.

In the early hours of Friday morning my daughter had to call an ambulance she was admitted to hospital at 5am. She was offered her first drink of any kind at 10pm. Yes seventeen hours!

She was asked if she wanted lunch about 1.30, explained she needed gluten free and was told they’d get something sent up from the kitchen. After we chased a couple of times she got two slices of dry bread, two apples, a yoghurt and a biscuit. It arrived at about 5pm. Twelve hours after admittance. This ‘snack pack’ was the only thing offered over 27 hours until breakfast this morning.

Her pain was off the scale. Her next morphine was due at 4pm she finally, got it at 10pm.

And needing a wee? Hooked up to an infusion drip for 24 hours, and heart monitor we had to manage the lot as best we could after each request to go to the toilet was talking between one and two hours.

This morning? In agony but still waiting for morphine.

What saddens me most is the lack of dignity for patients.

I don’t claim to know how to solve the problems the NHS have but I was taught customer service. I also run time management training courses.

First rule of customer service do what you say you will. If you promise someone a drink/pain killer/ assistance for the toilet and that can be done within minutes then have a system where it is done immediately.

It isn’t acceptable to promise you will do something/get somebody else and then walk away. How are we having accountability? How are we recording this? Because it happened over and over again yesterday.

Monitor pain relief. Have it on a wall board if necessary, but don’t leave it overdue until people, and there were many, begging for it. Rebecca came back from a CT scan shivering, feverish,bent double. Her pain relief was due and yet she got nothing for six hours. People come into hospital scared and psychologically challenged as well as physically pained. Are we not training staff to recognise that?

How many staff does it take to help somebody use an oxygen mask? Three. One to speak to the patient and two to stand back and watch.

Back to customer service, look at the patient, talk to them, and listen to them. Look at their body language you will see genuine pain. I didn’t see much looking going on yesterday. It was almost like staff couldn’t get away quick enough.

My observation was lots of staff, many of them at computers, and not much sign of nursing. It took five minutes to load my daughter’s notes, I watched the screen. What a waste of time! And during the twenty minutes they were left open on the screen the nurse went off several times to do other things.

Swallow the frog. Do the thing even if you don’t want to. I understand emergencies come in but these were nurses wondering off to do things they’d been asked for hours before.

I am neuro divergent. I train businesses to work with neurodivergent staff. I felt like I was sat in the middle of a giant ADHD brain. Little achieved, staff distracted left right and centre, everyone trying to remember but writing nothing down, little direct focus and little accountability.

Finally food is medicine. Please cater for things like gluten free. People don’t go gluten free out of choice, it’s so incredibly expensive for one thing, so if they do present as gluten free it’s because gluten is bad for them medically. It’s not hard to make a few gluten free sandwiches. Two slices of buttered bread and a slice of ham. People just want something to eat and drink without being made to feel like an inconvenience.

And inconvenience is exactly what I’ve seen this week. We seem to have lost the service in National Health Service, how do we get it back?

16/01/2026

This is a first for me, I have kept my arms covered for 50 years. It’s time I accepted my Lipoedema body

16/01/2026

It’s good to see Lipoedema being discussed on This Morning. We’ve been applying to them to speak about it for over a year since the Lorraine show spread such misinformation. I guess they’re more interested when celebrities have it but at least they’re featuring it. We’re off to Berlin in March and hopefully, Rebecca’s surgery will go as well as Josie’s.

What a legend!  I’m sad to hear that Gary Craig, the creator of EFT has died.  EFT and the profound impact it had on my ...
12/01/2026

What a legend! I’m sad to hear that Gary Craig, the creator of EFT has died. EFT and the profound impact it had on my chronic pain is the reason I left teaching and retrained as a therapist. Since then I’ve helped many people change their lives using it. What a legacy he has left. RIP

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