12/01/2026
To you .. yes you 💕 I know you need to hear this right now .. you are doing great x x
Every now and then you need to pause and honour how far you have come.
Where your journey has led you.
What you have been through.
Give yourself a hug and a smile and say,
“Bloody hell… I’m strong. How did I ever get through that?”
It might not be the life you once envisioned,
the path you thought you’d take,
or even the people you imagined walking beside you.
But here you are.
Still here.
Still healing.
And still becoming.
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Journal entry written while I was in hospital
Thursday 12th September 2024 — 8:45 am
I am very flat today, crying a lot.
I just want to go home.
Nearly five weeks in hospital now,
and it looks like it will be another four at least.
I want normality.
I want to walk to the toilet on my own.
I want to be at home with my family.
I want to cook my own meals, tidy my house,
go and get a coffee at my local café,
walk my little Benny.
Sit outside in the fresh air.
Shower myself.
I appreciate all the small things in life
that I now can’t do.
I know this sounds very negative,
but there is a wounded part of me here
that needs some TLC.
All people say is “don’t be negative.”
“Don’t say that.”
But then I would be denying
that wounded part of me
that needs to be acknowledged.
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To be healed, loved,
she needs to cry.
It doesn’t mean she’s given up.
She needs to release these emotions.
After all, this is a healing journey,
and it’s one that’s not easy.
I am still determined to walk.
I haven’t given up.
I am just sad.
My life feels like it has crumbled.
I’m in the Tower card.
Nothing will be the same again,
and the unknown is scary.
But I do know that I will be okay.
It’s just the journey
that is difficult.
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✨ Healing isn’t linear.
Some days are heavy, some days are lighter — all of them matter.
The wounded parts of us are not weaknesses;
they are places where love is learning to live.❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
