08/09/2025
I don't usually get stuck for things to say when it comes to my soberversary and my sobriety but this year I have found it quite hard and I think I know why!!
It's because for the first time since I both started and stopped drinking I honestly am happy with every aspect of my life, work is going good, I'm getting my passion for my shamanic work back, I have the most amazing connection with my amazing wife (who has helped me through everything), the relationship with my spiritual team is stronger then ever and life is just plodding on.
I know to some of you the last one might seem a bit odd, but when I was in my darkest depths of drinking and self loathing I felt I needed to be busy and pushing, always on to the next goal, the next project, but the reality was I was using these as a distraction from the real issue, which was how I viewed myself and my role in the family I had created.
I had such a distorted picture of myself in my mind and hated that I wasn't as good as my siblings and I was never as good or as respected as them, I felt my family could do so much better without me as all I was doing was making them unhappy and I was never there due to my work.
It has taken a while for me to dismantle these false images and derogatory thought patterns which kept me at my lowest, but I can say whole heartedly and with conviction that I am proud of myself for all I have been through and not giving up on myself when others have, for being the tree and standing firm in who I am, how I love my life and the love I give my family.
There are so many souls out there that are not as fortunate as me to have had such amazing people round me when I needed them the most, so for anyone who is struggling please reach out and talk to someone as it will be the best decision you will ever make. If anyone needs to talk or have any questions then please get in touch.
One love 🐺🐺🐺💜💜💜🪶🪶🪶
