21/04/2026
Motherhood is humbling ❤️
For a long time I lived in fight or flight and I didn't even really realise it. In my 20s I struggled with thoughts on repeat, worries going round and round. It could be something big or small like worrying that 'I should of said that differently' or 'maybe that's why they haven't replied to my message because I've said the wrong thing'.
Thoughts on repeat, bouncing from one thing to the next.
This could go on for days!!
I hated silence, needed constant background noise just as a distraction.
When I think back I can't believe how hung up I was on daft things but the stress is REAL. Your body feels it even if you don't know it at the time. Exhausting!
Over the years with practicing yoga, movement, stillness, breathing, actually connecting with myself, it gradually, without me even realising, got better. My mind got more quiet, I enjoyed silence. I could sit with my thoughts.
I didn't realise I was in fight or flight until I was out of it 😅 I didn't realise I had been walking around, shoulders up, jaw tensed, holding my belly in with tension. I didn't realise I hadn't been present for most of my life. Always somewhere else in my mind
You hear a lot about healing these days as if it's the ultimate goal 'to be healed' and motherhood gave me a huge reminder of how healing is not linear. There's no direct path straight to 'being healed'. It's constant ups and downs with whatever life throws at you
Yoga has helped me so much which is why I am so passionate about sharing it. With hormones and general motherhood, I could feel that fight or flight feeling in my body again. Adrenaline, the thoughts, not as extreme as in my 20s but I felt it. Shoulders up, jaw and belly tense. Now 4 and a half months in I feel more relaxed again, more in control of my nervous system again 🙏
My practice is not what it used to be but it's there always 🥰
I just wanted to remind anyone who needs it that 'healing' or feeling good isn't linear, it's not normal to feel 100% all the time, to never worry or feel stressed. It's Yin Yang. Both exist at the same time. Both temporary. You haven't went backwards, you are exactly where you're meant to be ❤️