01/08/2025
Oh August, the month I'm ready but not ready for. Trigger warning, miscarriage mentioned below! 👇
August 2024, I just felt like superwomen really! 🤭 I was my fittest. Ran my fastest 5k. Muscle mass was high. PBs at the gym. I was loving triathlon training.
After my triathlon in August, we decided to try for a family and I fell pregnant straight away. Working in the fitness industry for so long, everyone would always say 'youll get pregnant easily when you try' 'youll bounce back' and so on. Which was lovely to hear, and when I fell pregnant I remember thinking everyone was right! 💪
Fast forward to October, and I unfortunately miscarried. Ironically, I was teaching a fitness class (I was instructing, not taking part because I didn't feel great, trimester 1😅) when I felt what no pregnant women wants to feel. But I wouldn't have wanted it to happen anywhere else if I'm honest, it was like my body knew there is no good time for this to happen, but in your comfort zone and favourite environment will help ease you during this ordeal. It was nothing short of horrific if I'm honest. Physically and mentally. I was 7 weeks. I don't need to say much more about it.
My body internally recovered physically well. The hospital was happy with my progress. And 8 weeks later, we tried again and fell pregnant straight away. I personally like to believe my recovery was down to the positive condition my body was in. Which makes no sense as to why I miscarried in the first place right, if I felt my body was in great condition to recover me anyway..? & that for me is the hardest thing about miscarriage, is the no answers and no explanation.
I feel incredibly lucky and blessed that my body not only recovered but was able to carry again. I have cherished this journey that extra bit more, but I have been riddled with anxiety.
1 year on, I'm the heaviest I've ever been but blessed💓 How incredible is the female body! Baby girl is due next month, and wow you're so loved.
What a year. Everyone has a story and journey. This is part of mine 💗
