10/09/2025
🐾 TRIGGER WARNING 🐾
It’s World Su***de Prevention day today and I thought it pertinent to reflect on the progress I’ve made - it’s been 6 years 4 months since I tried to take my own life.
I wondered what I was going to write as I think back to the person I was and she seems a world away from who I am today. The question spiralling my mind this second is - do I regret it?
The immediate answer is yes but the answer is also two pronged - yes, I do regret the act itself. I regret the hurt I caused to not only the people that love me but also to myself, because they nor I had any idea how to fix the hurt within me or make me feel better.
But, and it’s a big but… it was the catalyst in my life to step out in faith and begin to heal. I was blessed with another chance - to deconstruct, decondition, trust, learn, and then ultimately to begin to grow and flourish. Off the back of that time in my life, I have become so unbelievably resilient - of course curveballs happen, it’s life! But I can deal with whatever comes my way. I have dealt with whatever has been thrown at me and I’ve always picked myself up and carried on. And I will continue to do so in the future too.
I can honestly say, i’m proud of the person I’ve become since that time in my life. I mean, I have the best furry life jacket by my side in my girl Lola - always keeping me afloat 🩷🥹
***depreventionday ***deawareness