19/06/2024                                                                            
                                    
                                                                            
                                            Quick update on the knee injury π€.
5 months  today I had the quad tendon repair and it's been a very testing journey in lots of ways. 
Due to the bone on bone arthritis in the both  knees it has made recovery far more difficult as the so called good knee decided to give out the same time as the injured knee causing them both to collapse under me resulting in a very bad fall in my home 3 weeks ago . That im still recovering from . Luckily nothing was broken but the operated knee has been randomly collapsing since I have managed to save myself several times from falling completely to the floor till yesterday resulting in another fall outside this time. Luckily not as bad as the last one but both knees took a hit this time. More swelling, tightness pain.  As you can imagine this is very difficult physically but also mentally and emotionally especially as I was doing so well. 
The last few weeks have been 2 steps forward and 10 back but I'm determined to find out why this still keeps happening and it's so random without any warning too.  With the help of my family friends ,consultant and the team I'm hoping to be able to get back on track. But it's going to take a lot of time and  perseverance and this is a really big test of all my patience and will. 
But I'm also grateful as the falls could have been a lot worse,  if I didn't know how to fall safer and stop dead from  my 35 years + aikido training . 
Just want to thank everyone that is helping me and nijo crazy pup on this strange but transitional road to recovery. I'm determined to get there and am continually adapting to overcome all these obstacles somehow. 
Looking forward in the future  hopefully π€π€π€to doing something normal like going to a gig, theatre, walking the dog up a mountain, making my own food, standing up or walking without falling when  sober  would be a good start π dare not have a drink now, making plans and lots more simple stuff I can't do.  
for now I will take gratitude in being able to do a few basic things myself  and walk in some shape and  form with my sticks  some help and a lot of will power.