11/03/2026
Wow, it’s been a hot minute since I’ve jumped on here…as you can imagine, life has been a tad busy with a little one…
🥁🥁 DRUM ROLL PLEASE 🥁🥁
I AM FREEEEE 🙌
Today I packed away my pump… and wow, what a journey it’s been.
For months I’ve pumped everywhere — on walks, in restaurants, cocktail bars, even on trains.
The panic about returning to work so soon and not being able to breastfeed at every feed weighed extremely heavy for me.
When I returned to work, I used to locked myself away to pump in private (after a few diary tweaks to allow this to happen). However, as the days went on, I slowly braved pumping around my team and even during patient visits.
It started mainly around female patients, but eventually the male patients clocked the pump sitting on my desk too — and somehow that felt okay, knowing many of them had experienced this with their wives/partners.
That little machine has been my constant companion — however, I can safely say I won’t miss the noise… and neither will my friends or family who’ve had to listen to it humming away while I’m on the phone. 😂
Over the last 10 months I pumped roughly every 2–3 hours for anywhere between 30–60 minutes. When you do the maths, that’s somewhere between 1,500 and 3,000 hours attached to that little machine. 🤯
Some days I pumped as little as 1oz (iykyk) and at my peak about 4oz per session — which means I’ve likely pumped somewhere between 6,000–9,000oz of milk… roughly 180–270 litres.
I now understand my nickname ‘Daisy’ 🐮
There’s definitely a huge sigh of relief knowing I don’t need to pump anymore. But at the same time, there’s a quiet sadness that this chapter of breastfeeding has come to an end. I can imagine this feeling will be worse when breastfeeding stops completely.
Whilst everybody tries to prepare you how to breastfeed, nobody speaks about how sad it is as it comes to an end.
I understand a new, exciting chapter will unfold but I can’t help but feel sorrow that those tiny fingers wrapped around my hand and quiet moments during feeding times will soon be a thing of the past and I will miss it immensely 😢
I always tell my pregnant patients to go into breastfeeding with zero expectations because something that is meant to be one of the most natural processes can also be one of the hardest things you’ll ever do.
For me, it’s been one of the greatest challenges — with plenty of tears along the way.
Today I mostly feel proud. Proud that I stuck with it. Proud that I kept going, even though the initial stage was such a struggle and proud that I continued even after returning to work so soon.
And, finally, a huge thank you to my amazing team, patients, friends and family who encouraged and supported me along the way. It truly meant more than you know. 💛
What a wild, emotional, exhausting, beautiful journey it’s been.
Bye Bye Mom Cozy 🤛🏾👏🏾👋🏽
