
05/10/2025
Sometimes things just don’t go the way you want them to and it’s gutting!
4 weeks ago I posted about doing a 10km run in memory of a colleague that died by su***de. The run was a big thing for me as running is not something I’ve ever enjoyed or aspired to do better apart from legging it out of the rain.
Anywho I started to enjoy it, started to see why people did it, why they said it cleared their heads, and I started to miss it when I couldn’t go.
As always I thought I was invincible (really need to learn) and my couch to 5km training went really well but I added more km’s too quickly - 🙄
Jump to 4 weeks ago and I strained a muscle in my calf. I followed the advice of the fabulous physio and all was getting better- he did tell me I really needed longer but I don’t think the thousands of people doing the run would have wanted to move the date just for me - until I pushed too far again last weekend, I didn’t think so at the time but I did!
Upshot is, it went again, totally my own fault for thinking all was fine, I’m not running and feeling so disappointed in myself as I should be in Glasgow right now with my colleagues - also picked up a snotty cold - go figure
Life is a bit sh*tty at times and sometimes it’s of our own making and we have to own it. You’d think at 52 with the knowledge I have plus the experiences I’ve had, I would be more sensible but I guess we are given little reminders along the way to listen and realise that we’re not infallible and that’s ok.
Im really sad about today and sad I let it happen but I’ll learn again for next time (and hopefully calm the monkey mind) and once it’s all healed and built up again, I WILL run the route in Glasgow with my SAMH ‘for Robin’ t shirt on, think of him, think of the impact of mental health in our nation and think on my silly mistakes and accept that I may be older but still have to give in to learning.
Go SAMH today!!