22/05/2025
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Well, we are learning everyday, navigating keeping life as simple and soft as we possibly can. Itโs messy, itโs love, itโs non stop, itโs peace, itโs chaos and itโs thriving. And this is it, this is life, life is all of the things isnโt it? All emotions just living simultaneously within us.
How am I doing?
Iโm living. As the above states, all the feels, emotions, realities, navigating past, present and future, allowing all energies to collide as one.
I feel my journey has been so beautiful yet unknowing. My pregnancy was overwhelming, life paused for some time and all my energy was used to keep baby and I, healthy. All strength was used to simply survive. I then transitioned into fear, what was going to come? You know how it is mamas just ALL the worries, every worry possible. To giving myself a reality check that itโs okay to be scared and this huge life event will frankly take time to digest. To allowing so much nurture, grace and love for myself, to be present, to just be, to just get comfy with not knowing, the unknown, what is. Learning that I am so blessed, and true to self which has been my only goal to actually keep my integrity in tact. I am exactly where I am supposed to be with all that I am supposed to have. To then riding a new wave in very much my now, thatโs now asking more questions. Itโs pushing me to seek my future. A future that right now is still void, I have no vision, and for someone who is naturally intuitive, creative, feminine and loving, this frankly freaks me out. So much so I keep avoiding the, โWhatโs next?โ, but again, do I need that right now? I need not dwell, fear or stress, this is all still so new, so fresh and only highlights the sickening demand on us women to just bounce back and have it all together.
I am in my mess, in pieces, not together, unresolved, and do you know, itโs how it should be. Itโs okay. To make life requires so much self sacrifice and devotion. I am 5 months post partum, I am soaking in this bubble, choosing to be slow, because itโs how it should be and what we deserve and I am grateful I am able to provide myself with atleast that.
Life really is crazy beautiful isnโt it? ๐ค