23/10/2023
After seeing photos of me during a recent work trip, I hit rock bottom. I have a constant battle in my head that has led to a 2 stone gain over the last few months.
Why should I have to diet? There’s so many beautiful role models nowadays who are bigger girls. I can be one of those. I’m still a good person despite how I look.
I rarely socialise and work from home anyway so no one will see me.
My husband says he loves me as I am and thinks I’m beautiful so I can carry on as I am.
Invited out? Sorry I can’t come, money is tight this month.
No matter how many excuses I make or what I tell myself to make me feel more at ease with the situation, whenever I catch a glimpse of my reflection, I’m disgusted in myself. I literally hide myself, how is that okay?
If you’re in the same boat and tell yourself the these things, please stop. We are ruining ourselves and wasting our lives because we don’t feel good enough to be around anyone.
Yes this is probably the tenth time I’m restarting but I’d rather restart than continue to go on feeling inadequate.
