17/04/2026
Today I step into the version of myself that I am becoming.
I started a 21 Day Kundalini journey and a 12 month training course on Medicinal, Hedgerow & Culinary Herbalism.
After a period of deep retreat, honouring grief, reflection on old patterns, thought patterns, behaviours and emotional reactions following the quiet unraveling that followed after the loss of my beloved Dixie.
I find myself here, more aware, more intentional, more rooted. That time within wasn’t easy, but it was necessary. It asked me to sit with what was, rather than rush toward what could be, honouring my grief without the standard response of “I’m fine” “Yes, I’m okay”
Through that process, something began to integrate. My understanding of the deeper emotions my body was holding, it all started to weave together into something lived, not just learned.
I know healing isn’t a single path or a quick fix. It isn’t linear, and it doesn’t belong to one practice or one idea. It’s a combination, a layering, a continual returning to self. A recipe that evolves.
And with that comes choice.
What I eat. What I drink. What I read. What I listen to. Who and what I allow into my space. How I speak to myself. How I show up.
Observing how the mind chatters and berates and how the heart expresses nurturance and guides softly.
It’s always your choice.
I’m deeply grateful for the support around me, the healing practitioners, friends, and family who have held me. But I also recognise that my healing, my mindset, my way of being ultimately comes from within. From the decisions I make moment by moment.
Life isn’t always easy. There are challenges, waves, and moments where strength feels distant. There are times when we need to be held. But there is also a quiet power in choosing to keep stepping forward. In choosing optimism. In choosing presence.
Healing asks us to move beyond the noise, beyond the stories, beyond the layers we’ve built around ourselves. It asks us to soften, to listen, to return to the heart.
Today I choose to meet myself fully in the messy, wild unconventional way that I am. Healing is always an inside job! 🧡
