01/03/2026
2026 is a year for deep healing for myself, in fact i ow this to myself,
It the least i can do for me,
Like 65 per cent of the people on earth i come with childhood trauma
This trauma repeats it self in my behaviour and pattern,
Wether that comes though as to emotional or to angry or addictive Patten, the shadow is always there ready to show me what i can not see myself and often can project it on to other,
Turning 50 last year and starting the female change in life going from woman to elder,
My body is changing, my energy is charging a d my mind is changing,
Im learning to go deep deep deep inside, take time of silence just sitting with me that's really hard as i find it hard to sit down for to long,
I'm getting a lot of support from my dear friend that are healers a s being my own therapist,
Daily righting, recognising my triggers sitting with my triggers and chatting with my little Katie, asking her what it is she needs,
Sound baths with Shelly Bell
Deep shadows workshop with Sarah Hurst
Massage body sound bath and healing with Sarah Hurst - Rising Above Cancer
Therapy with YouTube and myself
Sweat lodge with Helen Noakes Rupert Johnson
Plant medicine journeys with myself Kate Wright and my journal.
Yoga with Liz Warrington on zoom
Yoga with my crew Mondays Kate Wright Yoga Nedra
I have friends and ancestors holding space from a distance or another realm.
I had a assessment in Jan that has and will help me learn more quickly about the trats or myself,
In a way i have feel i have been blind to my own self, but now I'm looking and can see
Dancing as much as i can to release my body tension,
Crying when it comes not holding it back letting my river of emotions flow freely,
Faceing myself daily in the mirror with affirmations of love and care,
I'm stripping back my masks I have used to protect myself through my life and making myself vulnerable to me,
This weekend i meet with a dear old friend a sister of magic and Helena Mostafa held space a s lead me though a aura energy cleanse, lead with songs from the ancestors, mother and grandfather gong bath, chimes, Tibetan sound bowls, crystal sound bowls, shamanic drums, Helena sung to me for her with her voice of the from the gods.
this was a very powerful experience and felt these entities and energies leaving my body, there a lot to face in deep healing work as your faceing your dark side as well as your light
I'm feeling so much lighter for this healing and am looking forward to integrating it,
This was also the first time i had sleep in a temple,
And of course I'm feeling deeply deeply greatfull
To be hear on earth as a earth mother,
To be a mother to a beautiful son
And to have a wonderful circle of friends who are hear on my healing journey besides me and holding my hand ๐
Please don't read this a think I've had a bad life I'm a healer on a healing path,
The more i heal and understand my trust about myself
The more i will be a instrument of the Divine to help healing others the more knowledge I have the deeper my practices can go,
We do this work because we want to understand ourselves better.
Healing starts at home
Blessings love and gratitude