12/01/2026
Life has a lot going for it and the great thing about reaching a fine age of 70 is the unbelievable happiness and all that sleeps into your amazing storyline.
This beautiful girl of mine turned 50 in December. She was born in a Meditation room in a grand old villa in Zurich. The snow was falling in lazy swirls against the window panes creating a calm settling feeling in between the ruckus that shook my body with cries of "I will never ever do this again" Somebody was boiling pans of hot water in the kitchen and the midwife pressed a chilly silver speaker to my belly, listening carefully " alles gut" she said and got out her knitting "tief durchatmen"
Try as I did to remember those peaceful bubble like prenatal classes, my painful peeks were a jumble of agonising selfpity and violent anger, I swore and cursed and could have thrown punches. Transition. Then all that work, pushing and panting and refilling filling the lungs with hurried chunks of oxygen and liquids flowing and a feeling that you will never manage this crazy impossible thing. Is God a man or what you joke until the next contraction wipes the smile clean of your face. Suddenly its the precious crowning and you only want to push but the midwife is breathing with you, showing you, leading your breath and some verrsion of you knowing somewhere deep down the need to wait for the powerful muscular urge to purge, the midwife working hard now and then the pure relief of the head curling out and you are your body now listening to only encouraging words, instructions, the adrenaline pumping filling your cells filling your very soul and then whoosh, and you hug your warm and gooey baby girl with tears of joy, hearing those little gasps and then magically, her first tiny wahhh resonates against your belly.
Your gratitude is immense, tearful, joyful, it's past midnight, there is a soft carpet of snow delicate and uplifting on the big fir trees in the garden, the air is clean and fresh as you look around your new world, as a mum. All in order and you have a new baby and someone makes you a cup of tea with all that boiling water.