29/10/2025
All I can say is that October has been a month I will never forget. It’s been one hell of a trip, on the back of this entire year being one hell of a trip.
There’s so many words I want to say about what has transpired and how things have been going, and perhaps I will dive deep into some of these things in a blog post soon…
But overall it has been a hugely transformative month in so many ways. It’s been full of so many moments of warmth, of care from others, care for myself, taking it easy, moving even more slowly (I’ve been trying to change the pace of my life this year for reasons I can speak about some other time), deep clearing, deep healing, full circle moments, and feeling comfortable to express myself in my own way again.
Death has an interesting way of waking you up to what it is you are supposed to do, to focus on. Not just with my dad - I’ve been experiencing rebirths of all kinds working with plant and frog medicine for the past year and a half. Old versions of the self, habits, survival modes and mechanisms, perfectionism, pressure, things that don’t fit the expansion. And yet the biggest thing I have learned through all of it is how much I have to offer, and how much I have been holding myself back. I haven’t necessarily learned anything ‘new’.
Shedding it all and coming out even stronger, more aligned and more creative than ever. It’s been incredibly challenging but so so worth it.
So overall, I can say that I am doing good albeit with the broken heart of knowing I’ll never get to see my dad again - but he’s been showing up for me everywhere this month is other ways, from the rainbows in the clouds to the windows he fit on Baggot street this year that I get to walk past on my way to work - and it’s so wonderful. 😌
I’ve been trying to reset my entire life for the past 6 months or so and I’m so nearly there. Which means everything is nearly in place to get going on some crazy creations and I am so excited to work on these ideas that have come through. Lots to look forward to, lots to play with, lots to do.
Thanks for reading the more waffly, raw things on this platform. Hope to see you for yoga, a gig or a pint very soon! ✨