04/07/2025
I got rattled last week...and it got me thinking 'why?' .....
Last week I was away on an intense training, and a few days in I noticed my old friend, anxiety, had come to play. It made a difficult week even harder.
One night, awake at 3am, pumped with adrenaline, I got to thinking...why now?
At home, in my normal routine, I have a very solid practice to keep me on track. I train, nurture and support my nervous system diligently. Every day. I move, I meditate, I talk to it, I build in loads of pleasure and play....and when seas get tough, I can captain my ship pretty good. My thoughts are clear, balanced and calm. I still get stressed, I still feel intense emotions like fear and worry, but I get back on track quickly because I have one foot in regulation. And I as a result, I have capacity to take big leaps in life, and push through limitations.
But last week I didn't have may usual routine, and I FELT IT!! I wanted to crawl away, hide from the world. All my resilience was leaking away, and I felt pretty useless.
People seem surprised when I say in know anxiety...as if I'm somehow immune. But I only know how to handle it because I lived with for so long. And I don't know a single soul who hasn't danced with if at some point.
But there's good medicine in it if we are willing...
Do you notice what triggers your anxiety?
