08/12/2025
As soon as "this" is all figured out, it'll be smooth sailing.
Between my job, my parents, my kids, & my house, I just need things to calm down!
Everytime I think I can come up for air something else happens- Enough already!
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Fact: Life is messy and difficult & sometimes bumpy as hell. There are times that feel hard, too hard, and we wonder how we're going to get through. The desire to have calm, peace, & a day where your loudest critics aren't screaming, money isn't tight, loved ones aren't dying, & politicians (all of 'em) just-stop-talking is real & valid.
I was introduced to an idea a few weeks ago that centered on an EKG. I don't know what each peak & valley on the graph mean but I do know this: no ups & no downs give you a flat line & that means only one thing: death.
The ups & downs can be downright impossible (I didn't relish losing a close friend & my mother-in-law 8 weeks apart).
They can feel surreal (surgery followed by the outbreak of war was NOT on any of my Bingo cards) and they can feel downright cruel (how can anyone believe that October 7th didn't happen).
And somehow, despite the ups, the downs, & the relentless hits that keep comin' we persevere. Most of the times we get knocked down we stand back up- over & over again.
I believe that railing at G-D, a higher power, karma, or whatever has its place. But railing endlessly doesn't solve the ache.
A life without problems is a fairy tale none of us will ever experience. There are terrible, awful things that should not happen but they do. They force us to figure out who are, who we can turn to, how we grieve, & how we put one foot in front of the other. There's no denying that some days are brutal.
And yet.
A life with highs & lows isn't a sign of failure or punishment or judgement even when we're convinced otherwise.
Despite what we think life should be, those ups & downs are a sign of life itself. Life in its misery, its glory, & its unpredictability.
Here's to ups, downs, and hopefully, living well.