04/01/2026
There’s something I’ve been feeling more and more clearly: there’s a gap I notice in the healing world.
We spend so much care tracking patterns, tending the inner child, bio hacking, tracking steps, nervous system regulation, going into the depths of the story or the shadow, being s Fking mindful and ‘developed’. None of this is wrong — it matters deeply.
And sometimes I wonder if we can zoom out a bit WHILE including this.
The more I seeped into the movement world — contact improvisation, floor work, calisthenics, dance — I noticed something different. People weren’t trying to be healthy or optimized. They were living. They still had struggles, and there was also vitality, aliveness, presence.
With the movement and the muscle building came - Joy.
Joy isn’t a luxury. It’s information. It tells the body: I’m alive. I’m resourced. I’m okay.
Of course, pattern work matters. Of course, healing matters. The question is how we’re doing the work. Is it coming from resource and embodiment, or from a quiet urgency that says something isn’t okay yet?
Some of my biggest shifts didn’t come from understanding my patterns. They came from returning to the body — movement, sensation, breath, strength, joy.
This isn’t anti-healing. It’s a wider lens.
Does your life feel alive, or does it feel like survival dressed up pretty as wellness?
Whats the energy hanging out behind the actions. Can we investigate it together.