Spiritual Growth with Pranayama With Jonathan Saar

07/09/2024

Thoughts on Relationships, Loneliness, and Meditation

I want to share some thoughts on dealing with the feeling of loneliness.

I think there are many reasons why people seek relationships or romantic or s*xual connections, but I believe that the deeper reason is often a desire to free oneself from the feeling of loneliness.

Loneliness is sometimes called the most severe epidemic of our time. Personally, I have experienced long periods of loneliness in my life, and as someone who accompanies people on spiritual journeys, this is one of the most common issues I encounter.

I think that when people experience loneliness, the almost automatic solution that comes to mind is that loneliness can be solved by finding a relationship.

Just as a hungry person seeks food and a thirsty person seeks water, a lonely person feels the need to seek and find love. The mind automatically aligns itself with a single, familiar solution to numb the emotional pain arising from loneliness.

I believe that our inner conviction that the solution necessarily comes through relationships is sometimes a kind of blindness to a deeper solution, one that can truly liberate us from the pain.

I have personally experienced long periods of loneliness, especially during the time I lived within the religious world, particularly regarding the need for an emotional connection with the opposite s*x.

In my twenties, I opened up to the world of meeting women, and it did alleviate my sense of loneliness for some time. But it also brought about other kinds of emotional distress, which stemmed from a strong sense of dependency and fear of losing the women I was with.

I think this fear was partly due to the fear of returning to that feeling of loneliness.

Over the years, I came to realize that relationships didn't truly solve my sense of loneliness; they merely covered or concealed it, and certainly did not create a satisfactory solution to this suffering.

Encountering the world of meditation gave me a different perspective on how to work with these feelings. The fundamental understanding was that the emotion that arises does not necessarily have to lead me to seek out women to numb it, but rather to practice a new approach to dealing with it.

The practice fundamentally aims at a full embrace of the emotion, with much softness but without reacting to it.

In other words, not rushing to a bar on the weekend to meet women, but rather coming into direct contact with the most painful place.

Over time, there is a sense of the pain dissolving, so that the external situation does not necessarily change, but the feeling of the pain of loneliness dissolves inside, creating a sense of relief and freedom even when I'm alone.

My point is not that one should avoid relationships; I think they are very beneficial and enriching for the soul. The point is that relationships can stem from a place of deep friendship and emotional connection, rather than as a response to an internal state of lack and pain.

When we approach this point, we learn to live in peace with ourselves when we are alone, and even when a relationship falls apart, the dependency is much less intense, so there is far less experience of pain.

When pain arises, we can stop, practice, and experience it through deep meditative observation. This process helps us reach a sense of relief and deep internal regulation, which ultimately allows for a deeper connection from a place of calmness, rather than pain—something that leads to a much more harmonious connection.

I also see the paradox that when romantic encounters do not arise from a place of loneliness but from a place of freedom, people are much more attracted to you, and relationships become much more stable and fulfilling.

When a relationship comes to compensate for an internal distress, it inevitably leads to a state of attachment accompanied by many negative emotions like jealousy and anger when the relationship loses its stability.

When we are in a state of freedom, there is a much freer movement that brings a sense of liberty and happiness.

04/09/2024

Ta**ra Yoga and Core Wounds

The Power and Risks of Ta**ra

Ta**ra is one of the most powerful and intriguing practices in the realm of spiritual exercises, but it also comes with more obstacles and dangers compared to more conventional paths. In this post, I want to address the impact of core wounds on those who follow the ta***ic spiritual path.

Healing Through Awareness

A correct approach to core wounds can transform ta***ic practice into a powerful healing tool. However, ignoring these wounds can deepen the trauma and cause harm to the practitioner and even to others.

Understanding Core Wounds

Core wounds are defined as deep emotional injuries usually created in childhood that affect one’s self-perception and behavior in adulthood. Core wounds are not always conscious but tend to influence especially close and significant areas, particularly our relationships and overall dynamics with the world.

Examples of Core Wounds

For example, a person with low self-esteem from childhood may not progress professionally despite being highly talented, and someone who feels emotional coldness and alienation due to neglectful parenting might struggle with empathetic communication with others, leading to a bleak view of life.

Personal Experience

Personally, I transitioned from a religious-nationalist background and returned to secular life in my early twenties. Living in a world with explicit and implicit messages against s*xuality and romantic relationships, along with tendencies towards emotional and s*xual repression, led me to a state of low self-esteem and emotional difficulties in relating to women. One could say that my core wounds were a deep sense of worthlessness and feelings of rejection.

Navigating Deep Suffering

I remember, especially in the early years, how present my core wounds were in my life and practice, and I sometimes had to navigate through deep states of suffering. The more intense and profound the practice, the healing processes take a very long time.

Seeking Spiritual Practice

Everyone has their own story, and many of us carry core wounds into adulthood, which sometimes drive us to seek spiritual practices or paths to alleviate the pain.

Avoidance and Ta**ra

It is not uncommon for men who have experienced failure or frustration in relationships with women to turn to ta***ic practice to compensate for these deficiencies. They may see ta***ic practice as a way to fill the void left by past experiences, often driven by a need to overcome feelings of failure and lack experienced earlier in life.

Examples Among Men and Women

Another common example among men is the need to develop strong s*xual power as a way to compensate for feelings of inadequacy in their masculinity.

A very typical example among women is those who come to ta***ic practice seeking to resolve emotional and s*xual issues arising from s*xual trauma. They look for healing in a place where s*xuality is more open, but sometimes these encounters lead to the opposite effect.

Destructive Outcomes

Especially in workshops that encourage s*xual freedom, it is not uncommon for a man with insensitivity driven by his personal wounds to harm a woman seeking healing. Of course, there are also plenty of examples of men being hurt by women.

Avoidance of Core Issues

A common scenario is practitioners entering practices while experiencing emotional or s*xual dryness in their relationships. Instead of deeply exploring the reasons behind this dryness or disconnection, they seek to relive experiences through ta**ra workshops.

These cases do not represent core wounds, but they are also a form of avoidance of directly addressing the heart of the issue. It is essentially an attempt to circumvent the problem through spiritual practice.

Special Attention in Ta***ic Practice

These processes are very common regardless of the ta***ic world, but when it comes to ta***ic practice (whether s*xual or not), special attention is required. Ta***ic practice can provide a lot of power to the practitioner and tends to open emotional Pandora's boxes, sometimes leading to the flooding of deeply buried issues.

The Risk of Painful Energy

When a practitioner or their teacher is not aware of core wounds and their impact, what can happen is that the painful energy arising from these wounds does not undergo healing but instead becomes the driving force.

Viewing the World Through Wounds

When a person views the world and others from their wounded and incomplete place, they essentially see the world through lenses that cannot contain others; instead, they may view others as objects to help them escape their own suffering.

Awareness and Connection

When a person is driven by their internal wound and is unaware of it, the tendency is to be focused on oneself and one’s pain, lacking the genuine ability to see and connect with the needs of others.

Healing Through Conscious Awareness

When the expression of the internal wound is conscious and contained, the pain ceases to be the driving force, and healthier aspects of the psyche become the driving force through which we meet the world.

Managing Desires

For example, if a man arrives with a sense of failure with women, it is quite possible that when he receives the power derived from ta***ic practice, he may want to use that power to become a womanizer to fill the void created in earlier stages of his development.

However, if he is aware of this need, he can contain his desire without acting out destructively and even involve his partner in the practice, in a group, or with the teacher as part of the healing process.

Neutralizing Destructive Energy

This process of awareness will neutralize the destructive aspect of the energy, allowing him to meet others from a more vulnerable place, which, though harder to contain, leads to healing and an authentic, deep connection with others.

Acceptance and Healing

When internal acceptance without judgment occurs, a process of healing and release from that painful place begins. Healing can be a long process, but once there is higher awareness of the internal processes, they cease to be destructive energy harming the practitioner and those around them.

The Path to Healthy Relationships

Awareness with non-judgmental self-acceptance is a key to healing and building a healthy relationship with the world.

Monogamy vs. Polyamory

In the previous example, many women who have experienced s*xual trauma and thus issues with s*xual functioning may end up in a situation where they have s*xual encounters with many men in ta**ra workshops.

Sometimes this comes with ideas like "experiencing freedom" or "living life to the fullest," but on a deeper level, they are trying to heal the emotional wound in a destructive manner that exacerbates the wound further.

True Healing Through Intimacy

Understanding the internal wound, it is important to recognize that healing does not come through random s*xual encounters based on momentary excitement. Instead, true healing can come from deep processes a woman goes through with herself and sometimes through an intimate relationship with a man who can understand and contain her from a loving place.

Personal Belief and Practice

This allows for internal acceptance of painful processes and helps in building a deep and committed relationship that supports the healing process.

Personally, I believe that women who have experienced s*xual trauma will gain much more benefit from monogamous relationships rather than polyamorous ones.

The Role of the Teacher

When a teacher understands the deep motivation and wounds of the practitioner, it allows for recognizing and containing the issue, so it does not become a driving force for the practice but rather the practice becomes the tool for healing it.

The Necessity of Addressing Core Wounds

Addressing core wounds is a painful and challenging process, but it is necessary when we seek profound internal healing.

The Critical Importance of Self-Understanding

When we enter the realm of ta***ic practice, understanding ourselves deeply becomes much more critical. It can sometimes determine whether the practice becomes a tool for healing or a harmful weapon directed against ourselves and others.

Evaluating Motivations

I think it is important that before teachers allow students to enter ta***ic practice, they deeply examine their internal motivation for engaging in the practice.

Sometimes ta***ic practice can be a tool for healing, and sometimes other practices or therapeutic methods may be more effective.

Choosing the Right Path

When the practitioner understands on a deeper level what they are searching for, they are better able to assess whether they want to engage in powerful ta***ic practices or if it might be better to pursue a different path.

Personal Journey and Growth

For me personally, the practice of ta**ra yoga and meditation has been a crucial part of my journey to address and release my core wounds. Despite the challenges, internal healing has come over time and made this path a powerful and beneficial tool in my life.

16/08/2024

Exploring High States of Concentration: Pathways to Insight and Potential Pitfalls

High states of concentration form the bedrock for deep inquiry in various meditation practices, including Vipassana, Zen, and "self-inquiry" in the Vedanta tradition, among others.

While these states can significantly enhance our practice, they also come with potential pitfalls that are worth examining.

Although my usual focus is on Ta**ra Yoga and Kundalini practices, this discussion on concentration states is highly relevant and complements our exploration of these transformative practices.

In fact, Ta**ra Yoga deepens concentration in a unique way, either refining the practice or leading us away from the path of liberation.

Let's delve into the intricacies of building concentration in meditation:

1. The Process of Building Concentration

When we direct our focus to a single object, our awareness narrows progressively, causing physical and mental peripheral experiences to fade into the background.

If we manage to sustain continuous concentration on the object while maintaining present awareness, despite some mental and physical sensations, we achieve a state known as “access concentration.”

This foundational state serves as a springboard for deeper insight into the nature of the body and mind, as seen in practices like Vipassana.

2. Deeper States of Concentration

Beyond access concentration, practitioners often seek to deepen their focus, reaching states known as Jhanas in the Buddhist tradition or Samadhi in yogic terms.

These profound states of concentration can bring about intense bliss and happiness, surpassing ordinary experiences.

3. Understanding Bliss and Its Challenges

These elevated states of bliss are described by Patanjali and referenced by the Buddha. However, there is a significant distinction in how these states are perceived.

From a Buddhist perspective, these states are seen as temporary and ultimately unsatisfactory because they are constructs of consciousness that will eventually dissolve. They are tools for sharper observation rather than ends in themselves.

4. The Buddha's Perspective

The Buddha viewed these deep concentration states as helpful but not as the final goal. He saw them as processes created by consciousness, which are inherently impermanent and therefore unsatisfactory.

The true path involves using these states to develop a heightened awareness of the ever-changing nature of physical and mental processes. This leads to an understanding that these processes are not “self” and are ultimately unsatisfying if clung to.

5. The Challenge of Attachment

When practitioners experience high states of concentration, they may become attached to the blissful states, mistakenly believing they are closer to liberation.

This attachment can prevent them from observing the full spectrum of internal processes, including suffering. The Buddha emphasized that true liberation comes from equanimous observation of these processes, recognizing their impermanence, lack of self, and tendency to cause suffering.

6. The Path to Liberation

The practice of deep observation, as taught in Buddhism, purifies consciousness and leads to an intuitive understanding of our true nature.

Concentration states, while beneficial, can create an illusion of having reached the absolute. They provide temporary relief from suffering but do not address the root causes.

7. A Metaphor for Understanding

Imagine a dirty room where, instead of cleaning it, we focus intently on a single point on the ceiling. Our concentration might make us forget the room's condition, but once we shift our focus, the room remains as dirty as before. Similarly, high states of concentration can temporarily obscure negative mental states, but they do not cleanse consciousness.

8. The Importance of Returning to Observation

To achieve true liberation, one must move beyond the transient states of concentration and return to observing and understanding internal processes. It is not about leaping forward but about continually refining observation and releasing attachments to temporary states of bliss.

Conclusion

High states of concentration are valuable tools in our spiritual practice, but they must be used wisely. They can be both a blessing and a trap if clung to as the ultimate goal. True liberation requires a broader, more profound observation of our mental and physical processes, leading to a deeper understanding and ultimate freedom.

Stay tuned for future posts where I'll delve into the various states of Samadhi and their implications for our practice.

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16/08/2024

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15/08/2024

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12/08/2024

How to Live in Harmony with Desires: The Ta***ic Way - Part One

The fundamental Buddhist perspective, as well as most classical Hindu views, see desires as the root cause of suffering. Consequently, most methods that emerge from these perspectives aim to free the individual from desires.

Desires are perceived as chains that need to be released, and the goal of these practices is complete liberation from them, leading a person to a state of equanimity toward everything that exists—a state without desires and aversions toward any aspect of material existence.

When someone chooses this path in traditional ways, they follow the path of ascetics or monks, reducing their needs to the bare minimum required for survival.

Their inner practice is directed toward freeing themselves from all emotional and mental chains that arise from the pursuit of happiness and the fulfillment of desires.

Not everyone who follows this path does so completely. There are also paths and perspectives designed for householders, where room is given to some desires, but in a limited way, with safeguards to protect the practitioner from descending into a world of immoral pursuit of desires.

An example of this is the restrictions on s*xual relations. Many spiritual teachers throughout history have guided their students to experience their s*xual urges within a monogamous relationship, which is considered safer than polyamorous systems or s*xually liberated lifestyles.

This perspective serves many practitioners in both the East and the West, but in my opinion, there are pitfalls in this approach that can delay a practitioner's true liberation.

This stance can create a pattern of hidden internal judgment, which contains negativity toward the body and s*xuality, both toward oneself and others.

At times, teachers who hold this perspective develop a puritanical façade that serves them in their interactions with students.

The teacher might maintain a certain image, consciously aware that if they were fully exposed, they might lose the respect and status they hold.

In extreme cases, this can lead to such deep repression that the teacher themselves cannot acknowledge it.

When a teacher in such a state encounters students with issues related to s*x or romance, they may exhibit a tense and judgmental attitude.

Despite the rhetoric that "everything can be discussed," practically, a barrier may form between the teacher and the student. Instead of an open space for recognition, there is a sense of constriction and lack of acceptance.

The student might hold onto the things they want to share, intuitively sensing that the space is limited, and the teacher feels a certain rejection toward them or what arises from them.

When a teacher or practitioner fails to openly deal with their personal processes, they will struggle to address the processes of others.

Repressed s*xual desires may eventually erupt, causing suffering to the practitioner and those around them.

This is one reason why some teachers develop s*xual feelings toward their students and may even attempt to act on them, which can make the space unsafe for the student.

Even if it doesn't reach that point, the repressed inner state can lead to negative emotions, potentially turning the environment around that teacher toxic under certain circumstances.

In the ta***ic perspective, there is a different approach to working with desires—one that embraces them and allows for greater expression.

The ta***ic path also aims for complete freedom, like the Buddhist or classical Hindu paths, but it focuses on experiencing desires with awareness, in contrast to ascetic methods that aim for observation without fulfillment.

In the next post, I will continue to explore this topic.

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08/08/2024

Balancing Shiva and Shakti – The Key to Safe Kundalini Practice

In the ta***ic world, Shiva and Shakti are like two sides of the same coin: Shiva represents pure consciousness—the part of us that knows and understands everything around us.

Shakti, on the other hand, is the energy that drives everything we experience—what we see, hear, feel, and even think about.

Shiva and Shakti always work together, complementing each other. Shiva is the eternal, unchanging stability, the foundation of existence, while Shakti is the dynamic force that brings everything into motion and change.

Together, they create the unity from which all life emerges.

In this article, I will explain how to apply the principles of Shiva and Shakti in Kundalini and Pranayama practices to create safer conditions for advanced practice.

Throughout my work, I encounter many practitioners who have lost their balance due to starting Kundalini practices too early or due to an imbalance between yoga and meditation practices.

One of the most challenging questions is how to determine who is ready for such practices and who is not.

I take this decision very seriously, often guiding practitioners toward other paths or recommending preparatory practices that can last months or even years to create a safe foundation for the rise of Kundalini.

When teachers introduce advanced techniques without adequate preparation, there is a risk of unwanted symptoms known as "Kundalini Syndrome."

It’s easy to awaken Kundalini, but if it spirals out of control, even experienced teachers may struggle to restore balance. It’s similar to entering a highway—once you're on, there's no turning back, only moving forward to the next exit.

So, how are Shiva and Shakti connected to this?

Shakti symbolizes the life force and Kundalini energy. Practically speaking, it’s not just the energy moving through the body and spine, but also all the physical, energetic, emotional, and mental experiences the practitioner encounters.

When we practice techniques that awaken Kundalini, everything becomes much more intense, and the practitioner may be swept away by these sensations.

Shiva, on the other hand, represents the ability to remain steady and observant, not to get carried away by these experiences.

The practices that cultivate this stability are primarily meditations based on concentration and mindfulness. Proper concentration builds a calm and stable awareness, while mindfulness allows us to observe internal processes without getting caught up in them, whether they are pleasant, unpleasant, or neutral.

The goal of this practice is to reach a state of "pure presence" (Shiva), where all phenomena (Shakti) occur without disturbance, and the practitioner rests in the stable, unchanging state of existence.

This state is known by different names in various traditions, such as "Mahamudra" in Tibetan Buddhism.

Problems in Kundalini practice can arise from various sources, including blockages or lack of purity in the physical and energetic bodies. However, in my view, one of the main issues is that Kundalini rises without the mind being adequately prepared through meditation, leading to an overwhelming emotional and mental flood that can be difficult to manage.

Proper preparation in meditation ensures that the vessel—the mind—is broad and deep enough to contain everything that moves within it. When the vessel is small, the experiences may lead to pain or ecstasy, and the practitioner may struggle to handle these sensations.

The aim of the practice is to understand that these fleeting states are not fulfilling, and that true happiness lies in pure awareness, not in the phenomena that rise and fall within it.

In practical terms, I believe that meditation should be the foundation, with yoga practices serving as supportive tools.

When the practitioner is experienced in deep meditation, Pranayama and Kundalini practices become powerful catalysts for rapid development of the mind, making the practice much safer.

A proper understanding of the structure and purpose of the practice can help practitioners make wise decisions and build an appropriate training plan.

In the early stages, it is crucial to receive guidance from an experienced teacher who can monitor and direct progress.

Wishing everyone a safe and successful practice!

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05/08/2024

Meditation and Romantic Relationships: Full Listening - Part 2

In my previous post, I discussed how meditation can enhance communication quality in romantic relationships. This time, I will delve into the topic of full listening and its importance in understanding our partner more deeply.

One of the main challenges in romantic relationships is understanding not only what is said but also what is left unsaid. When we listen fully, we not only hear the words but also pick up on the emotions, needs, and intentions beyond the words.

This kind of listening requires a higher level of inner awareness and the ability to pay attention to non-verbal cues such as body language and tone of voice.

In this post, I will continue to explore the connection between cultivating deeper inner awareness with ourselves and creating deep and balanced romantic relationships.

I believe that one of the foundations of creating deep intimacy is the ability to listen fully.

Sometimes, when we think about full listening, we may assume that we need to understand literally what our partner wants us to understand. However, the challenge is that what is said verbally is not always the true message our partner wants to convey.

Imagine you are in a stressful week and come home late from work, and your partner asks somewhat anxiously when the work stress will end. She might not really want to know the technical detail of when the project will finish; instead, she might be trying to say she feels alone and want more of your attention.

When your partner says he is willing to give up meeting his friends over the weekend, but you notice tension building up in his throat area and his voice tightening, it may be that they are actually seeking your permission to spend quality time with friends without feeling guilty.

We don't always say what we think or feel, but what we really want almost always manifests subtly through our muscle tension, breathing, or tone of voice.

We just need to learn to listen deeply beyond the words to understand what our partner truly means.

The quality of this depth perception is a skill that trainers and therapists develop over the years, but I believe that to truly understand our loved ones, we also need to develop these skills to understand the person in front of us more deeply.

Mindfulness meditation helps us "clear" the space so that our inner space can accommodate the person in front of us, allowing us to truly embrace them, not our thoughts and perceptions about them.

Through practice, we become like a mirror that can reflect our loved ones without judgment and understand their being and desires expressed beyond words.

Meditation also helps us release automatic reactive responses. When our mindfulness is deep, we can recognize our inner judgmental voice and know it as our own.

When internal judgment arises, it creates a temporary distortion of reality, so we see our partner through a narrow lens that isn't necessarily clear. Meditation practice helps us quickly release this limited perception and return to a state where we can know our loved one without our ego's interference.

We realize that we're not seeing the person in front of us but rather recognizing that an internal trigger has masked us, creating a temporary disconnect from healthy communication.

When we are skilled at radical listening to our loved ones, we can perceive beyond the words to understand their body language, breathing rhythm, posture, and the energy emanating from them.

Some may see this ability to listen as the ability to love.

It is possible to learn to read another person systematically and methodically, but in reality, when we truly listen and remain fully present, we can intuitively understand our partner.

This understanding creates a space where they feel safe, seen, and understood, encouraging them to open up because they do not feel threatened.

When our mind is clear and calm, we can reflect our loved one as they truly are. Our mind, becoming more refined through practice, learns to pick up on the subtle cues beyond the words, allowing us to fully understand our loved one.

Pure listening is the foundation for all processes to create healthy emotional and s*xual intimacy.

I will continue exploring the topics of communication and s*xuality in the next post.

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