11/04/2026
Sometimes you need to expand, and at other times you need to hone in.
When I began practicing Yoga it gave me an unexpected, and an unexplainable sense of freedom.
Not just my body, but also my mind.
For the first time in my life, I had found something that wasn't trying to make me small, but on the contrary, I felt like I kept growing bigger and bigger. Just like Hanuman π
Most of my life I've kept myself small, hidden, feeling like I don't belong anywhere, so I began wearing all sorts of personas to see where I would fit in.
The nice girl. The bad girl. The emo chick. The metal chick. The skateboarder. The groupie. The mature woman. The career woman. The wifey. The bad ass. The "go with the flow" chick. The wanderer.
None of them worked. None of them brought me closer to who I truly am.
By the time I came to Yoga, over 15 years ago, I was tired of being who I was.
I was expanding in all the wrong directions, but they all gave me an experience to which I am forever grateful now.
My first years in Yoga, I did what I knew best, and that was to keep expanding, but only in one direction, to get to know who I truly am.
It was much later in life that I discovered that my talent for expanding draws not only from my experience, but also because my joints are over stretching.
The body is cristalized mind as my teacher would say, so if my body can expand, so can my mind.
This is what it means to live with the hypermobility pattern, and I call it a pattern because it shows up not only in the body, but also in the mind.
While I was expanding, I didn't realise how much instability this was creating in my body, because most times with hypermobility you don't feel much, so I was expanding more to feel something.
Then came the injuries, the surgeries and the realization that all this expansion was creating tension, and I was actually holding on for dear life.
It took many years to arrive here, a place where I know when to expand, and when to hone in, and I still get it wrong sometimes. This is life.
But I am closer to knowing the truth about myself. I felt glimpses, and that's what I am holding on to now.
Can you relate?
Gabriela x