16/08/2025
I had vaginismus for nearly 10 years and went through so many different states of mind during that time. Initially I used to think maybe me and my husband are not s*xually compatible. Then I thought I was as*xual. At some point I was sure it was some anatomical problem and a part of my pelvic bone was at the entrance of my va**na. I never mentioned my problem to anyone. We both kept trying and failing. It caused stress in my relationship. I went to a gynecologist and she outright rejected my self diagnosis saying "vaginismus kuch nahi hota, it's a western concept". She performed a two finger test in which she inserted 2 fingers in the va**nal canal and said everything is fine anatomically and I just needed to relax.
We had almost given up on the idea of having va**nal s*x when I found out about the program on Instagram. I contacted them immediately and during the first call itself the Dr was sure I had vaginismus. I was surprised that she was able to tell this just by listening to my symptoms and history, without doing any physical examination. I felt validated for the first time. I was put on a waitlist and within a month received a call to join the upcoming batch. And I thank my stars that I joined!
The program had a positive vibe about it right from the beginning. The way the social media posts were written, the doctor with whom I had the initial call for diagnosis and the coordinator, everyone spoke about vaginismus very technically and empathetically. There was no hush hush, shame shame. The program changed the way I looked at my body, it changed the way I spoke about s*x and pleasure. In our society female bodies and organs are either talked about in vulgar tones or shameful tones like it's something of a taboo. We hardly know the proper terms, what is v***a, what is va**na, what is cl****is, how it works, how they look. I myself had never looked down there. I didn't know how my own v***a looked.
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