05/07/2024
How are you happy all the time? The truth. I am not.
I am human. I have my moments of contrasts. And like it is supposed to, a contrast elicits an emotional response in me that does not feel good. What I have become really good at is seeking better-feeling thoughts. And no I am not talking about by-passing any emotions. That doesn't really work. I don't go from sad to happy. I don't go from unhappy one moment to joyful in another. I only seek relief. If that takes me to feeling angry, I'd rather feel that than sad. If that takes me to feeling angry to irritated, I know I have moved up the emotional ladder. And from there I am seeking more relief.
I am now aware that I am an energy being. I create. I attract. My alignment attracts. What I attract depends on my alignment. I am not happy all the time.
I am certainly happier than I used to be. I am certainly in a good-feeling state most of the time. And it's a great place to be.
However I wouldn't know what happiness feels like if I did know the bone deep sadness.
I wouldn't have known the joy of being alive and present in every moment had I not experienced the desire to end my life and that sorrowful feeling of being adrift.
I am grateful for all parts of my journey. The highs and the lows. The ebbs and the flows.
I want you to know that all of it is a part of your evolution. And I want to remind you to never be ashamed of where you were and what you felt. And yet remember not to constantly look back and romanticise what was (the pain, the sadness, the hurt). The longer you give attention to it, the more you activate its momentum.
Allow yourself to flow
like the currents of the ocean,
Let the wind blow,
and take what's no longer for your
highest good,up into oblivion.
Let your mouth form a smile,
Let the wind rustle through your hair,
Pause, sit down, slow down for a while,
breathe, be at ease, let yourself become aware.
Aware, that you have a choice,
In every given moment,
to choose to be grateful and rejoice,
And to live in the present.
The past is over and done,
you are your shining knight,
The future is an outcome of what you choose today,
Oh fragments of the Source energy, let your true power ignite.