
20/10/2024
AMMI! YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY PERFECT 💖
Anytime I visit my mother, my Ammi, she often asks me, "Mera rang bhot kaala hogaya na? Is beech bhot tan hogaya. Mere chehre pe dhabbe aur wrinkles bhi bhot aajare na?"😓
Background: From a very young age, my mother was often made to feel bad about her complexion, and somewhere along the way, she internalized that insecurity.🥺
Each time she asks me this, I simply reply, "Nai ammi, aisa kuch bhi nahi hai." But she feels I’m either disinterested or just being polite. 💔
Growing up in a family that wasn’t used to heart-to-heart emotional talks, I’ve never been able to truly express my feelings to her.
Here’s what I’ve always wanted to say…
" Ammi! To me you are the most beautiful person. Do you know, why Kajol was my favourite actress? It was because, she looked like you. With the same beautiful wheatish complexion and big expressive eyes, she reminded me of you. I look at your face - your wrinkles and spots, you so dislike and I see you walking in hot sun, everyday to go to work, to provide a good living for us. I see your hands, and in them I see the hardwork you put into the countless meals, you prepared for us."
I wish I could go back in time and hug the little girl that you were, who was made to feel, that she was never good enough.
Let me really tell you what I feel, " You are not just good enough. Ammi! You are absolutely perfect"🥰🌈