Wings

20/03/2025

19/02/2025

In a hasty world, we have been programmed to under-estimate the time we truly need to heal. We learned to unconsciously repeat or write notes such as have a speedy recovery forgetting that when we rush to heal, we are actually telling ourselves that we don’t matter and also telling our body you don’t deserve to be granted all the time you need to gently recover.

Every time our body tries to whisper softly delivering a light message/symptom in order to draw our attention to a certain imbalance, either we choose to turn off those notifications or we run to automatically respond by shushing it with some quick fix, pressuring our body to heal the fastest way possible and therefore accepting this urge of: have a fast recovery !

Eventually after many gentle trials, the body decides to scream as loud as possible:

Would you please notice me for once and choose to check slowly those endless messages you have been sending to the junk or to the trash bin? Would you choose to pause a bit for me and to allow me to really feel, process, rest and take my time to heal so I can help you continue more balanced? What are those distractions you keep activating every time I talk to you?Aren’t you noticing that there is a dis-ease or a dis-quiet going on here?

Have we ever reconsidered how much those notes of “have a fast recovery” put pressure on the person in pain and do not really help? When said to us,we automatically enter the fast mode scared of facing the pain, afraid of missing out life obligations while what truly matters in this given moment is the life within us.

It shows how much we have been mesmerized by constant productivity and busyness in order to prove our own worth. We have been taught to say I don’t have time for my body. I have deadlines at work, family obligations, my social media etc

Let’s normalize pausing, putting the kettle on, offering ourselves or anyone in pain a warm cup of tea, allowing each others to feel, sending sweet cards to people in pain wishing them a gentle recovery, advising them to take all the time they need to heal as softly as possible.
Putting yourself together takes time. Choose to take care of yourself.
You matter 🫶

Mireille

12/02/2025

Buy her this to deserve her. Buy him this to prove how much you love him. Love yourself first. Be your own Valentine. Tons of misleading advices !

Are we meant to keep giving energy to commercial systems or to false spiritual trends - affected by colonization - stipulating how to show and to deserve love?

- Is this truly aligning with self-worthiness?
- No.
- Why?

Because we can’t love ourselves first if we grew up in dysfunctional families and schooling systems/societies where the true model of love was either absent, conditional or received through manipulation and this cannot be healed just by having someone telling us love yourself first !

We think we should do this or that, be like this or like that, match this or that chart, follow this or that rule to be worthy of love.

Is this love?
Is it self-love when we say I love my body now that I can do this headstand or now that I let go of that weight. I love myself now that I got this job title. I love my life now that I have this partner or that amount I aimed at in my account?

Aren’t we falling here in the same pattern of conditioning: “You deserve this toy, this outing or my love now that you ate all your plate, you got this grade, you won this medal etc…”

If we get to only love ourselves now that we are in the best phase, what if something changes? Do we stop loving ourselves? Do we shame/blame ourselves just because something unpleasant occurred? Do we activate the vicious love/hate cycle? Do we punish ourselves as they used to treat us for not being the best and good kid in all phases? And what about the previous phases? Are we meant to only love the sunny phases forgetting that behind every phase there is a divine wisdom?

No matter where you are right now, I gently invite you to reflect upon your self-worthiness and to softly and slowly choose to re-assemble it on strong pillars no matter how much time this will take.

There is no shame in having a hard past and harsh limiting beliefs. There is always a new opportunity to embrace oneself in all phases with compassion.

Wishing you a happy reunion and a gentle reconciliation with your younger-self.

You are always worthy of love!
Mireille

05/02/2025

“Invite ur fears to tea !”

I read this beautiful quote few weeks ago while I was searching for some pictures to suit the weekly slow tea time article I am posting here.

I smiled when I first read it because it includes a warm cup of tea the concept that means a lot to me not only as a daily ritual but also as the name of our monthly circle that I miss a lot and of course the idea of this weekly article.

I smiled more when I saw that this sentence was part of a love notes card deck created by Kris Carr the same author of the book I was reading and I mentioned here last week: “I’m not a mourning person.” (You may swipe to check the love note card.)

Those small magical moments that many people call coincidences are actually part of my daily blissful and awe moments that leave a smile of gratitude on my face no matter what I am passing through.

Back to our sentence here: Invite your fears to tea ! How warm is that?

When we talk about our fears, it usually comes with a certain heaviness mixed with anxiety and uncertainty not to mention the endless ways our body speaks out when we are in fear.

I stopped and kept staring at this quote while holding my cup of tea and it truly invited me to a beautiful reflection as If I was truly inviting my fears to a date to sit and talk over a cup of tea without even intending to do so on that day and on that exact moment.

Awkward right?! To invite in what or whom we don’t feel comfortable to face or to be with. Just why not trying?

At that period, I was taking new decisions regarding my journey and our daughter’s journey. Despite the deep inner voice that was guiding me so clearly and the certitude my heart was granting me, one day, I woke up in trepidation. Am I really doing the right thing? A heaviness started to build up. I closed my eyes, rubbed my hands well, placed them on my heart, took some deep breaths and I asked for divine guidance.

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29/01/2025

“Check yourself before you wreck yourself.”

This sentence came to my attraction as I was resuming reading a book I started last summer and I suddenly stopped it due to some sickness I went through for a week or so.

During the war, it was still in my books, coloring books, diary and gratitude notebook bag I take with me wherever I go. I tried several times to resume it but I couldn’t. I picked other books I had with me, I also couldn’t read. My whole nervous system was not able to focus on that although reading was my loyal savior and my comforting companion as a child during all the wars I have witnessed.

On Christmas, my daughter offered me a book I was putting on my list. By beginning of January, I started to read it. Few pages and I stopped. I felt bad. What is going on with me? I am a person who can’t live without reading. I used to read 2 to 3 books per month. What has changed? I left it on my rocking chair until one day I felt I am badly ready to re-open it and to resume reading it the suddenly out of the blue I found myself so immersed by it that I couldn’t stop. I was daily excited to finish my house chores and my homeschooling shift with my daughter to just sit and read. And just like this. I finished it in around 5 days. My appetite for reading re-emerged. I was grateful.

I started to ask myself which book shall I start now? I gave myself few days to allow what I just finished reading to sink in as it brought lots of thoughts and it took me to so many depths.

On Sunday, I decided to open the bag I did not open since November 27. The day the so-called ceasefire took place in Lebanon. I unpacked all our bags except this one. I knew there was a certain resistance. When I finally opened it, I saw all the books I packed with me and I saw the book I stopped reading in summer. I decided to resume it. While opening to see where I have stopped, I found a paper on which I wrote so many notes along with 20 dollars. I smiled. Where did it come from?

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21/01/2025

How can we heal from all what we have witnessed the last 15 months?

How can we heal from all what we heard, seen, experienced, lived and re-lived?

How can we heal from all what we have witnessed in Gaza? From all what we have experienced in Lebanon? From all what we have seen in Syria? From all what we have heard about Sudan and Yemen?

Are we supposed to simply forget and move on?

Are we different because we are not being able to overcome it all in few days, few weeks or months?

Are we exaggerating for feeling exhausted, drained, tired and sad? For having sudden waves of intense tears? For losing interest in getting back to the so-called normal life? For not feeling motivated at times? For experiencing physical pain? For having nightmares? For not being able to socialize?

Are we the negative ones as people around us are labelling us? Are we playing the victimhood role?

Are we the ones people are fed up with their stories just because we chose to continuously stand with justice and to use our voices in the right way?

Are we the very sensitive people just because we were feeling the pain of our brothers and sisters and we couldn’t pretend that nothing is going on, it is just a war or not even our war?

No, we are not any of those.

We are normal human beings who have simply chose to feel and right now we are grieving !

We are the human beings who are trying to heal and to seek a gentle soul retrieval after all the losses and the intense sadness and pain that hit us in low and high waves.

We are the people who chose to stand in the right side of history and right now we are taking our time to rest and to process.

We are the sisters and the brothers who chose to root for each others in order to expand our interconnectedness through our deep roots facing all the chaos perpetrated by the colonialism in all its shapes and forms.

We are the ones who chose to see the truth and to speak the truth and now we are just resting to process it all gently, one thing at a time with ease and self-compassion.

We are resting because there is time for everything. For now, It is time for a gentle restfulness we all deserve !

Mireille

*Artist Credit: Rodica Anestiadi*

14/01/2025

“I would like to spend the rest of my days in a place so silent - and working at a pace so slow - that I would be able to hear myself living.”

This wonderful quote from “the signature of all things” a book by Elizabeth Gilbert the author of “Eat, Love, Pray” came to my attraction last week and it brought tears to my eyes.

It brought tears to my eyes not because it is something new that amazed me. It is because this is the sentence I have been repeating to myself since 2013. It is what I have been promising myself to commit to since 12 years ago. I remember very well the day I said it out loudly. It was few hours before heading to Beirut from Qatar to undergo a surgery. I was having my coffee by the pool in the residence where I used to live. I was reading a magazine waiting for a friend to pick me up to the airport. Suddenly, I felt a goosebump, I looked at the sky, I felt a deep bliss, I saw everything so beautiful and I realized how much I was missing out a slow living where I can literally hear myself living. I had tears and after a deep sigh, I told myself this is what I am going to do when I recover from my surgery and when I return here.

Did I really do it?
I tried. I succeeded for few weeks then I was again taken by the busyness of life any by what my mind was used to due to the hundreds of programs and beliefs.

Until slowing down became truly my thing. Everything around me and within me was like pushing me to go there in order to align authentically with my body’s wisdom, my feminine energy, my soul choices and purposes, my values and with what I daily teach.

I slowed down a lot. Yet, I was not hearing myself living like I was truly wishing. There was many great moments of bliss I was grateful for. Just something deep was missing. It is only when the ceasefire happened in Lebanon ( still incomplete as you see ) and the liberation occurred in Syria that the sentence came back to me so strongly while I was facing a turmoil of emotions. Something in this liberation, liberated me from within. This is where I said this is it. This is how I am committing to live from now on. Because if it is not now then when?

And then by no coincidence this quote came to me as a gentle reminder that things can take time as it took me 12 years to make it fully come true just also it is not only about a choice. With this choice comes a deep de-programming from all the limiting beliefs not resonating with that choice and more often challenged by a resistance - and trust me our subconscious mind is great at it - where we can find ourselves dragged back into what we thought was normal for years and years: the myth of being a superwoman, a super mom, a super wife, a multi-tasker, strong, successful and independent, taken by the urge of proving oneself to society and to all the surroundings.

This is an ugly truth.
The beautiful truth is live and hear yourself living even when you go through hardships and challenges, even when you go through grief, choose not to rush it out as there is no deadline. Live and enjoy every step of whatsoever is the thing you are doing. Even when you are waiting,choose to wait consciously not with frustration. Trust the divine timing. Allow yourself to be truly present. Feel yourself present. Turn off the auto-pilot mode.

Choosing to live consciously without regrets and without I wish I did this or that is what will give richness to our existence. Believe me, this is so precious and so rewarding. It brings a great peace to the heart.
The whole world might tell you this is not doable nowadays. I do tell you, follow your heart and your inner voice, it is not the world that has to decide on your behalf. Isn’t it what the Divine Plan is showing us all around with all the systems falling apart and all the new light emerging?

The outer world is a mirror to our inside world. The change and the true liberation we wish to see and to live by is meant to be inside out.

Everything is interconnected.
Choose to reconnect to what truly matters.
You matter !

Do you know what happened when I reached the airport on that day? The airlines found out that they made a mistake and took reservations more than the available seats. I did not have a seat. To apologize, they offered me a first class midnight flight. At first, I was angry because I was supposed to reach Beirut at 8 pm and to surprise my dad on his birthday. Then I took a deep breath and said to myself there is time for everything and for now the Universe wants you to just sit, to offer yourself a cup of tea, to have patience, to enjoy reading your book and therefore to experience a midnight first class trip. Won’t you accept living and hear yourself living? Isn’t it what you have asked for?

The universe was hearing you and it did not want to wait until you recover and you return. It wanted you to start now. Then guess what was the book I was reading? The power of Now by Eckhart Tolle.

Magical right?

Choose to let go of the need to control.
God is having your back !
Choose to trust that.

Mireille.

06/01/2025

Nothing has truly helped me navigating through the repercussions of the war in Lebanon, the wounds that emerged to the surface after Syria’s liberation, the harsh days the Palestinians are facing in Gaza and the apathy of people choosing to turn their eyes, except than choosing to cocoon, to stay home, to slowdown, to follow my own rhythm of grieving, to commit to a daily morning grounding in order to go through the turmoil of the emotions coming from all directions and to take it one by one without rush, without the need to over explain why I am feeling so to anyone, without expectations and of course without the urge of putting a deadline to my grief.

I chose to commit to all that faithfully because this is what I deserve and this is part of the nourishment my whole being needed in order to process, to release and to replenish.

What was happening and still happening around us is not a simple accident. We have been severely affected by it because we are human beings connected to each others and to all the cumul we hold within. No matter how much we choose to escape and to deny, it always returns to us in a way or another so we may choose to look at it gently and to hold a space for empathy by choosing to stand with justice.

We have been programmed that the best ways to cope with any pain is to distract ourselves because life has to go on. This has actually been a severe backfire. Our nervous system can tell.

It is about time to remember that no matter what is the individual and collective pain we are passing through, we have the absolute right to choose how to navigate through it without the need to prove anything to anyone and not even to ourselves.

If the world is choosing to go fast through a harsh and an inhumane system not designed to suit our brain, our nervous system and our whole well-being, let’s choose to remember that we are the ones who decide how we want things to be. It is part of our sovereignty.

It is self-care. It is self-love. It is part of our decolonization and liberation.
No matter what you are going through right now, choose to take your time to process it and make sure you remain gentle to yourself.

Blessed Be.
Mireille

30/12/2024

Here we are, Few hours away from entering a new year and it is happening amidst a new moon up in the sky.

The sky that I am daily looking at - since the ceasefire in Lebanon - to empty my pain, to snuggle in its vastness, to feel cuddled by its magical clouds, to get inspired and to send to the light all what is no longer serving my highest good.

The sky, the sun, the clouds, the winter sunset, the moon in all her phases have been my healers during this whole month.

I stand up in the sun for 20 minutes every morning and I close my eyes allowing it to caress my skin and to go deeper into my 3rd eye opening new dimensions and healing my headache and giving me a boost for the day so I can navigate through all the emerging emotions.

I observe the clouds in all their shapes and color shades, I see in each one a message and a reflection.

I dedicate a long time for the sunset.
There is nothing more beautiful than the winter sunsets: the art and the artist in one scene. The sunset talks to my whole being. It took me a while to be able to stand there again and to see it without worrying about the sounds of the bombs falling in front of me and to accept the smoke is not there anymore but only beautiful clouds merged with the color of the sunset. For that I was in deep gratitude. Those moments were like a powerful prayer merged with deep tears.

Tears of old and current pains, of relief and gratitude, of compassion and empathy with all what is happening around us, tears of a year that was not like any other year.

A year that was meant to take us deep to that extent so we may understand in the up coming new year what was all this painful metamorphosis about. I chose to stop asking why. I chose to trust the divine plan behind it all, I feel for the pain of every person and for every living soul that had to go through one of the hardest pains caused by a brutal oppression and by an intentional genocide.

Today, I choose to close my eyes to allow this year to fade away with ease and gratitude and I choose to open them to a new year unfolding gently with so many answers and blessings in its wings.

Blessed New Year.
Mireille

23/12/2024

Half a century and plus of despotism, oppression, torture, assasinations, corruption and abuse of power has ended by the 1st week of December.

For some people this can pass normal as any other event. But for every free Syrian, Lebanese and Palestinian, for every free human being this can never pass unseen and invalidated or else our humanity will be in an urgent need for a serious check up.

As a Syrian child, I had to grow up witnessing the worst kind of critics and division that took me years to heal. Once again, the Divine Plan came to tell me there is more to uncover, more to look at, more to bring up to the surface so that the healing of your voice can finally come to completion.

With the same amount of emerging pain due to those uncovered layers of vocal oppression merged with all the collective oppressed pain of my precious Syria, came exactly a similar amount of daily gratitude.

As we are about to celebrate a sacred silent night through the rebirth of light and the voice of truth in our precious Palestine, the voice that chose to emerge from our precious Levant, may we choose to remember that this liberation in Syria is part of the biggest divine plan meant to be in the Levant where it has originally started.

May the star of light that awakened the shepherds and guided the wise kings all the way to Bethlehem, awaken every soul in need to remember what it is to be authentically a voice of light and truth in this world. Jesus was born to teach us how to live free, to remind us of our birthrights, to pave the way in front of us so we can choose to reclaim our inner power and our free will, to re-find our voice, to honor our freedom of choice so we can be able to be our own leader, to live in dignity and sovereignty, to discern well what suits our well-being for our highest good and the highest good of all and particularly to remain a voice of truth facing all kinds of oppression.

May we all choose to find this path that has been concealed for centuries. May the star of light guide us to re-find our way with ease, love and harmony.
A Blessed return of the Christ Consciousness to everyone’s heart. A blessed return to the Light.

Mireille

03/12/2024

For once, let’s take a deep breath !
For once, let’s not hurry to return to the old “normal life” that was not always normal.
For once, let’s choose to stop repeating the words of resilience we keep repeating after every war and every harsh circumstances we go through.
For once, let’s choose to notice ourselves, our breath, our mixed up emotions and our recurrent reactions to every noise.
Let’s choose to observe our thoughts, our emotional flashbacks and the way our body is speaking to us due to all the repercussions of the war. Let’s not wait till it screams.

For once, let’s remember we have a nervous system and it urgently requires to be softly taken care of instead of topping it with the Holidays stress and unconscious rush.

For once, let’s choose to be honest with ourselves, to stop lying, coping, pretending and faking so we can be approved of as strong and resilient. Let’s choose to stop accepting this label as a badge of honor to validate the tale of being Lebanese.

Let’s be realistic and authentic!
For once, let’s choose to heal from the war.
For once, let’s choose to courageously affirm, there is time for everything and for now I am choosing to take care of myself. I am choosing to process slowly all what I went through no matter how big or small it was. There is no place for competition and comparison when it comes to war traumas and healing mechanisms.

For once,Let’s avow without shame, guilt or embarrassment that we have been into so much pain and we need to look after ourselves.
For once, let’s stop gaslighting ourselves and treating ourselves the way we have been treated without mercy by that dark entity and its dark allies.
Let’s choose to be kind to our mind and to treat ourselves with compassion. We matter!

December is normally a month to move inward.
The system we live in transformed it into a hustle and bustle month draining us and not even aligning with the Christ Consciousness.
This year, we are coming out of a horrible war. Do we truly need this rush? And what for?

For once, would you stop and say, I choose to be unhurried?
The choice is yours and the universe is having your back in this.
Just breathe.
Mireille