11/01/2026
I rushed into the building. My body still warm from the movement, but cheeks feeling the bite of the cool evening .
I put the key in. A sharp click.
Silence.
I closed the door.
More silence.
"Where IS everybody?" I called out. My voice sounding foreign in the stillness.
"We’re here," my husband replied.
Nothing else. Just more silence.
I shed my coat and handbag, my heart still racing from the fast-paced walk home. I ran into the room.
There they were. All three of them, lost in their books. No arguing, no requests, no playing, no noise. Just three souls quieted by words on a page.
Heaven on earth.
The rush inside me began to melt. I sat down beside them, offering no words of my own. I stroked their feet and hair.
I was home.
But I felt home because of something else too. I had just come back from meeting a couple of women who were nearly strangers, yet within minutes, the conversation went deeper - into the space I call the "underwater." It is what lies beneath the usual sight. Beneath the cover. Beneath the small talk.
(I do love the underwater)
And with that I have to finally admit - I find it hard to keep up with small talk.
In one sense, it’s a gift - a doorway. A way to start getting to know more people. But sometimes it feels like waiting in an anteroom.
And sometimes, the wait is too long...
I love the rare, potent interactions with people who are eager to see, feel, explore what truly bothers them. Hearing about their fears, their secret longings, and the dreams they are running toward or away from.
I like the marrow. The truth.
And now I remember…
In a meditation months ago, I was visualising my future self. I saw myself having dinner with a few people whom I didn’t yet know. I felt so clearly that we had separate lives, but for that evening, for that dinner, we were enjoying the conversation, enjoying exploring perspectives, enjoying the moment.
This is exactly what I felt tonight!
Be careful what you wish for ☺️ What you imagine, what you visualise.
Because it may come true!
And it may happen much sooner than you think ❤️
