Awakening-The-Goddess : A Sacred Journey Through the Temple of Your Body

17/09/2025

I LOVE getting older, unpopular for women i know ;)

I have a male friend i call ‘the old wizard’ 🧙🏻 bc he can’t wait to be an old man 😂 he celebrates if he gets a grey hair haha.. I don’t have any grey but i do love getting older.

The healing get deeper, i feel bolder & more & more me, reclaimed, whole, me. The self-love more radical & fierce. I love that i own myself & give less & less fcks! i celebrate unlikes, de-follows, ppl leaving my life when i show up real - bc being real is a no BS filter for the wrong ppl to exit my life & field 👋

Here on this page i write for myself. My own story.

The other day i shared about my father wound & a man i barely know decided to DM me, gaslight me, tell me mockingly i had ‘daddy issues’ ( as though that is MY shame) & inform me that i wasn’t doing the work & was a disappointment ‼️ 🤣🤣🤣

Ook .. This coming from a dude who doesn’t know a thing about me, who i’ve met ONCE in person bc he was a client ( & was actually one with gross slimeball vibes who was likely looking for sexwork not bodywork - yea we feel it! )

I told him rightfully to go fck off, & blocked his gross ass.

During my rightful sacred rage days of PMS i was channelling this anger through my cells & neuron’s to set my boundaries on fire 🔥 & do away with ALL types of people i do not want anywhere near me.

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And now i’m home 🏡 at last!! 😍 After 3 months of exile, and my beautiful sacred body held off on bleeding 🩸 during all my travels till the moment i was home, safe, free to nest.

I LOVE my body & my cycle for this.

I try my best ALWAYS to prioritise & cultivate my life, sessions, social life, work, travels around my cycle

- so that this 🩸Sacred Temple Time 🩸 is for MYSELF to savour it.

But our bodies & cycles are nature, & nature cannot be planned for, She does her own thing ☺️ But this time she was soo kind.

My bleed time is precious🩸

In this Bleeding Temple i choose to intentionally - ‘return to sender’ - all i have carried that is not mine.

All the hurt, others did to me bc they were running from their own..

All the shame, guilt, fear, hate, envy, disgust - that belongs to others, that i have …👇

27/08/2025

It happened last 9 years ago..

Suddenly a whole new phase of life began,
it didn’t happen overnight, but i took 1 lil mysterious step,
And it began a whole cascade of a new path unravelling before me.

Last time it was something so simple & strange 😂 - buying a pair of shoes!

I’ve no idea why - it was like those shoes symbolised something, were a step out of the comfort zone of the ‘old me’ into a new becoming version of me.

They were v simple shoes, nothing spectacular or fancy. But something i had never owned before,
& it made me feel differently about myself..
look at myself differently, begin to try more NEW things, question old beliefs i’d had..

& so it spiralled.

From poor, disempowered, spiritual hippy, & yoga teacher earning a meagre €15 a week, hidden away in the mountains, hiding & utterly disconnected from ‘normal life’; & in an abusive & toxic relationship, trying to get away from an awful spiritual cult - i began to break out of that shell, that constrictive mould, & venture, explore my way back INTO life.

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Life that terrified me, mystified me & intrigued me.

“The normal life” - that most people live,
that i’d given up at 19,
along with materialism - to seek my Soul & a deeper sense of life.

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Not all 👆 was bad, & i STILL yearn for the echos of the mountains & that simple yogi life ☺️ ( but next time it’ll be in a DIFFERENT way)

And “Real Life” - definitely wasn’t all its cracked up to be 🤣 tucked away like a hermit in the mountains - I feared i was missing out on something, but really i wasn’t missing all that much after-all. But LEARN A LOT - I did, & have.

And GROW A LOT - I did and have!

I also took my meagre €15 a week earnings to €150 a week, to €150 a day, to €150 an hour 😂

Not so much a symbol of financial success, as a symbol of SUCESS in reclaiming my WORTH,
& visibility, & feeling that i deserved to be IN life & a part of life.

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And all this story to say - i feel it happening again. 9 years later, something is imperceptibly beginning to shift again. I feel it. Something is IN THE WORKS

Some big shift & change in me beginning - with those small seemingly inconsequential steps

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21/08/2025

Where we SURRENDER we EXPAND ✨

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Ways we can practice the art of Surrender:

• Free embodied dance - no cool, copied or choreographed moves - just your body in flow, in movement for pleasures unravelling sake

• Singing & sounding - same as above ( the wilder, weirder & freer the better)

• Kundalini Energy Activations - similar to the above but with a lil more mysticalness thrown in

• MOONTIME 🩸 Sacred Menstruation, holy magical multi-dimensional bleeding time 🩸

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Most people seem to think i’m truly crazy when i say that moon-time 🩸 is one of my favourite times of my cycle.

Thats its deeply spiritual even.
Blissful. Soulful. Ecstatic & sublime.
Like entering into some of the deepest embodied meditation expansive, samadhi states

It wasn’t always ofc. I felt like most - it was painful, low energy, inconvenient, sickly, interruptive ugh

HOW did it shift?

And become an invitation into deeply sensual embodiment?

✨SURRENDER✨

- Surrender into my womb contractions / pain
- Surrender into the waves of lethargy
- Surrender into the heavy, the deep slow thick pull rhythm my body wishes for
- Surrender into the fully natural desire to retreat, get sick of everything & everyone & slips into sublime solo-ness
- Surrender, surrender, surrender

& let it pull me DEEP, deep, deep
Fall inwards & down

Into the DEEP-DIVINE 😊🩸❤️

Where then i begin to melt open, expand & fly



If you read this, myb this is your invite to try it 😊 add a ❤️ if your curious to try or have this wonderful experience too

20/08/2025

SURRENDER

….
… in every place i go, with every lot of people i stay with - i’m learning a LOT 😊🙏

From them, through them ..
from life, to me.
And i’m taking all them as nuggets & gifts.

Things i wasn’t necessarily out seeking ( consciously).
But if i don’t resist them, but open myself to receive them - it brings something new & valuable to me & my life.

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Its shaping & shifting me. Anew.

I definitely feel something shifting in me, like the fascia of me in the web of life is shifting & i’m allowing my being to move with it:

surrender, change, flow, soften -move into something bigger - not unlike what we do in &

We are ALWAYS learning.
Everybody is a teacher of something.

It feels good to be a student again, receive, & open new unknown doors

☺️

16/08/2025

The PastLife

16/08/2025

Yes - HEALING is not - bad things never happening to you again ( unfortunately! life is life) - But it’s RESILIENCE:

= shorter time periods of recovery when they do; better coping strategies when they do - selfcare, selfsoothing, speaking out, asking for help, showing vulnerability 💪 getting back up quicker & using it to GROW

Heal-ING is not never getting triggered again or being wounded & hurt.

Life is life, people are people
- but its about trusting our intuition & instincts & peoples vibes more:

- not self-blaming ourselves for the way others behave or treat us ( thats entirely on them)

- setting new boundaries

- speaking up instead of swallowing it

- communicating better & honestly

- trusting out bodies know the NO people,
& not trying to self-negotiate ourselves out of that;

- choosing things, ppl, places that bring us peace & nourishment

- Finding & prioritising safety in our n/s, environment, company, work-places
( not ‘putting up with’ bc we feel we HAVE to, or that it makes us strong; or bc thats ‘just how it is’ ‘ thats just what the culture/ men/ women/ workplace is like!’

- Questioning & curiously challenging our own repetitive patterns - where do we run away, go into fight, shutdown, hide, disappear, self-sabotage often ? What if we try something a lil bit different this time?

And so on

Healing is many many many many little steps, tweaks, changes, realignments.

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And were all always heal-ING if were consciously on that path & doing our best at doing the work.

Healing - is actually the path of SELF-LOVE ❤️

- we care about this being, this beautiful creature of ourselves, this soul, this right to life & goodness in us sooo much that were willing to do whatever it takes to let her/him be FREE
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to return to the essence & potential we Know we have in us

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13/08/2025

Be

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07/08/2025

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01/08/2025

And never underestimate it, it can be an immense amount of inner work!! ✨

I write this for myself too, as a reminder, as it can seem like a secret side-line to Life, a behind the scenes means to simply living life well,
but for some of us it is a LIFES WORK

And we/ i must value it, as much as anything painstakingly crafted & learnt.

Such as dance, or stone carving, or playing a musical instrument, or studying medicine!

To learn to heal well. To transform. To Alchemise. Is an Art form.

One often undervalued. But actually of IMMENSE VALUE ☺️

Those of us who choose to heal are of immense value, not only to ourselves, but in the way our quiet cultivated presence ripples out & affects others, calms spaces were in, makes others n/s’s feel safe

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We should never ever underestimate our value ( like i still sometimes do when i forget / less & less often tho ☺️)

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29/07/2025

Samadhi = depth of presence that opens into consumed expansive bliss states

WHY? - our cycle opens ‘portal doors’ every month, where the veils between the physical & the spiritual energetic/ etheric planes is much much thinner.

If we can allow ourselves to drop into deep embodies presence, & follow the pathways that lead to those doorways & slip between the veils, we can easily end up in some sublime, otherworldly states of being & bliss.

Deep presence = opening into deep bliss

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This is not a theory 😂 its a v lived & embodied experience i access every month.

And i have hears & read of many other women who know of this doing likewise!! 😊💓

Its available to us