12/12/2025
Expansive, divine, delicious, restorative, resetting, healing, mystical, alivening..
The feeling of being truly here & alive & present & in touch here. Nothing else really quite compares to it.
And yet despite how many times i’ve experienced it now, it amazes me that it’s still so easy to ‘forget’ of its existence.
Oh my soul doesn’t forget it, & my body - once tasted, once known - they yearn only for that nectar.. nothing else of the world comes quite that close. No food, no wine, no laughter, no drug, no love-making, no …
YET - its interesting.. I reflected with it today
Because we had to do something to drop into this - surrender, it comes from OUR own cultivation..
like anything here - anything we can gain we can loose. Anything we can cultivate we can have pride or ego about however subtle. Because we think ‘we’ are responsible.
Anything ‘we’ cultivate - we can grasp onto, wish to control, wish to keep..
It is deeply healing,
For the body, soul, mind, n/s, heart, energyfield.
I’d rather have this experience than not have it.
But Does it FULLY change our lives?
Did it prevent my life from being fcked over this year & being forced into survival mode as everything fell away from under me..? Not really 🤔
Or myb thats not the point. Life will happen no matter the state were in. Despite what the newage vibration & manifestation folk believe.
Yes it restores me from that contracted survival state. But to maintain being & living in this expanded state i’d have to live in nature like a recluse & have v minimal or no contact with humanity or the human mess world. ( attractive prospect 🤣 but not so practical unless i decide to become a sadhuess - & who knows!! May happen yet! 😂)
Yes.. my musings.
It is an incredible rich mystic experience that i am so v grateful & blessed i get to experience. It makes life worth living..
But ..
The question lingers still not fully formed.. That myb theres something more, not based or dependant on our own cultivation or efforts. Something bigger than us that can neither be attained or taken away..
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