Conscious Healing and Transformation

06/05/2025

A difficult but necessary act of self love and preservation 🙏🏽💜

06/05/2025

I know a few people just like this...

30/01/2025

Celebrating profound life lessons, insights, and clearing the past to allow a clearer focus for my future. Eternally grateful to this powerful medicine and energy of love and healing.

Even more grateful to heal alongside my sister, Chrystal, and our dear sister and energy-worker, Fiametta. 🪽🦋🌱

Transforming trauma to love and light ❤️

24/12/2023

With the new year upon us, many take this time to do inner cleansing and healing work. The best way, and safest way, is to carry out this cleansing in a safe and protected environment.

Join me February 8 to 11, 2024 for a beautiful retreat held along the Ruta de los Cenotes, just outside of Puerto Morelos. I have been doing my own inner healing and cleansing at this retreat centre and I cannot say enough about the integrity and care that is provided to those who carrying out this difficult inner work.

I have done two retreats in as many years and they are life changing. If you are seeking healing, cleansing, and deep peace, please join me in February. You won't regret it! Your true essence, your true SELF, is waiting for you to take the step.

I can be reached at 1-604-369-5950 or lisaruckaber@gmail.com

I hope you will join me 🙏 💚🤍❤️

15/08/2023

Remember that time in Mexico....

07/04/2023

Integration... what is integration?

Integration is the time one takes away from the medicine, away from the teachings in order to put into practice the insights and lessons one has learned. It's creating new "healthy" habits, new neuro pathways so that they become more natural and gradually more automatic. The end goal being more healthy patterns.

The dictionary definition of integration is behavior that is in harmony with the environment. I'd also add that it's being in harmony with one's "self" or "I am." It is bringing the balance and integrity into equalibrium of the whole. When one integrates, it's a replay of the personality into a coordinated and harmonious "whole."

I have taken time away from the medicine and am currently integrating the insights, lessons and am putting into practice what I have learned. Have I gotten it right the first time? Heck no! The neurological pathways of C-PTSD run deep. Very deep. But as the saying goes, the first step to healing is recognizing the pattern. The next step is analyzing the pattern: "How's that working for you?" some might say. Well, it's not. So let's change it.

Trying something different is another step along the healing path.
We all know the definition of insanity: doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. One cannot expect to have a different outcome when they are doing the same things.

So here I am trying new things.
I've enrolled in a trauma informed course that has shown me how PTSD has affected not only relationships, but also s*x and money. Who would have thunk? But yes, trauma affects ALL areas of our "self" as a whole.
I have continued with that education by enrolling in a course that will challenge myself to grow, change, evolve as a human being, a woman, a sister and daughter and friend.
I am committed to spending the next couple of months alone working on myself by studying, reading, eating well, and taking care of that lost little girl. She so deserves it.
I am committed to working on creating goals for myself as a woman, a traveler, for my business ideas and blogs.
I am committed to working on creating new friendships, expanding my circle of friends by getting out of my comfort zone, by not hiding anymore. Embracing expansion.

This is integration. This is living. Growth, evolution, union with my self.

04/03/2023

Every day is a new day. A new beginning. A new chapter. A new opportunity for us to grow, evolve, shed old patterns, create new ones, and transform into who we are truly meant to be.

I have been somewhat in isolation for the last two months; far from town up high in the mountains. My companions are two adorable mixed rescue pups, keen on getting all of my attention. Here in the mountains it's like time has stood still, yet I've been here almost two months already.

My time here has been difficult to say the least. I don't have the easy distractions of a city nearby. So my days are filled with trying to be conscious by meditating, healthy eating and caring for myself. One of my greatest challenges is trying to stop myself from overthinking and worrying. My brain and thoughts are like a monkey swinging from branch to branch, one thought or idea to another. And along with thoughts come uncomfortable feelings.

I've been stuck for months, maybe even the last few years. I've been caught in what feels like a slow death - losing myself, falling deeper into a melancholy with no knowledge of how to get out. Patterns repeat because they are automatic. When did this start? This has to change. I have to change. No one is going to do this for me.

So... today, I start anew with new routines, new goals for tomorrow and the days to come. To help get me "unstuck" I am enrolled in an online trauma course to help me see more clearly the patterns that are holding me back and keeping me stuck. I'll be learning about trauma in relationships, s*x and with money and how they are all connected and intertwined.

The healing doesn't stop. Layer upon layer is exposed and made raw for healing. The shadows are exposed to show us the areas that need love, compassion and acceptance. Resistence is my enemy. Fear is my enemy.

I am ready to face my fears. Here is to the next two weeks of healing. Blessings to you all on your journey 🌱🐍🦋🙏

11/02/2023

Hello? Hello? Yes, I'm still here...

More than six months have passed since my last post. Six months! So much has happened. I call it integration. Living life.

The last several weeks I've been in a type of isolation. Far from neighbors, far from town, all alone except for the company of two attention-deprived pups, the constant sound of birds singing all day, the cock-a-doodle-doing of hens and the clopping of horses' hooves as they trot down the road.

At first, it was eerily difficult to get used to. It was far too quiet and the silence made me restless. I was unable to get comfortable in the silence. I could not find my peace in the silence. Now, any type of noise that doesn't belong naturally in nature is disruptive and loud! I have become so accustomed to peace and quiet that I often find myself staring off towards the mountains, daydreaming about what it would be like to live here.

I rarely speak, except to the two pups. I go about my day in silence. I meditate throughout the day at various times as I feel the need. I am eating well and have put myself on a schedule because the time passes by so quickly here in the mountains. I'm taking care of myself mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually.

This is what I've been doing for the last month. Integration. Living life. Being present. Being. No doing, but being. Being in the moment. Enjoying my surroundings. Appreciating my life and being grateful for my experiences.

I promise to write more frequently. Messages have come to me during meditation that I need to share. That I need to act upon. So stay tuned...

Gracias 🙏
Gracias 🙏
Gracias 🙏
🌱🍄✨🐍🦋

06/10/2022

Sacred Medicine Retreat: November 3 to 6

If you have been looking for a safe and knowledgeable space to try Sacred Medicine, we have a retreat coming up in November.
Join us for a Sacred To***co Ceremony, Rose baths, two ceremonies with Abuelita, accommodations and meals.

Inquire here for more information. We hope you will choose us to take your Healing Journey with.

22/07/2022

Is there anything in your life that you have a very strong aversion to? Such as... a fear of cold water? I have a severe aversion to cold water, especially cold showers. So being in Mexico, I've had to adjust and accept that I may not be able to have a hot shower everyday.

I decided to challenge this "fear" and signed up for an Ice Bath.
It was on the beach, right before sunset and my ego thought of every possible excuse to not follow through. I was hungry. No, I was starving! I got the time mixed up and was early. I didn't want to stay and wait. Oh, the excuses were endless.

I did end up staying for the bath and am proud to say that I conquered my mind. (I'm not ready to say that I conquered my fear of cold water! lol) I warmed up, did lots of breathe work, movement and mental focus.

Then I stepped in!
Then I had to sit down in the tub!
My mind was screaming "get me out of here!"
But, I had five whole minutes to sit there and contemplate my thoughts and "feel" how my body was reacting to the ice water.

I was driven to tears (not sure what that was all about) and noticed that injured parts of my body felt more "solid" and heavier that the other "healthier" parts of my body.
I noticed that after about two minutes my body started to grow accustomed to the cold and the ice was quickly melting.
I was still fighting the urge to get out of the tub.
The tears didn't stop streaming down my face.
I felt a surge of sadness. Emotions that I have no idea where they came from. From down deep somewhere that I had completely forgotten about. Maybe on purpose?

Five minutes were up. I did it. Tears, resistence, ego and all.
I overcame my mind.
I took charge of it, instead of it taking charge of me!

Next ice bath goal, to submurge to my shoulders/neck.

22/07/2022

22/07/2022

To help me get centered and to become aware of the here and now, being present, I have started to say a prayer. It has helped me become more conscious and helps with my anxiety.

Here and now everything is perfect in my world.
Everything that I need to know will reveal itself to me.
All that I need to have will come to me in the most opportune time and place.
I am open and receptive to all the good and harmonious of this divine creation.
Because I am a conscious instrument of Peace and of His love.
Amen.

Aquí y ahorra todo esta bien en mi mundo.
Todo lo que necesito saber se me revela
Todo lo que necesito tener viene a mi en el momento y el lugar oportuno.
Estoy abierta y receptiva a todo lo bueno y harmónico de esa divina creación.
Porque soy un instrumento consciente de la Paz y de Su amor.
Así es.