01/09/2025
As a trauma therapist, I have a deep appreciation for the journey of healing, not only for my clients but for myself. Just three days of training can shift my perspective and bring clarity to my own path. Just finished the three-day integrative psychotraumatology training, "Model of Self-Therapist As A 'Tool'" with Doris D'Hooghe , and it was a profoundly personal experience.
Working with trauma requires a commitment to continuous self-development. The field is constantly evolving, and what we know today can be deepened or even changed tomorrow. I had one of those "aha" moments when I was introduced to a new attachment style, Thanatos Attachment. This concept resonated with me, and suddenly, some of the deeply ingrained, seemingly insurmountable patterns in my clients' lives made sense. It was not about a lack of will or effort, but a deeper, more primal dynamic at play.
The training offered more than just new clinical insights. It was a space for my own personal breakthroughs:
• Day 1 was about connecting with my own Transcendent Energy. In the demanding world of trauma work, I can lose sight of that inner wellspring. This was a beautiful reminder to tap into that resource and let it guide me.
• Day 2 brought a powerful realization about the echoes of my ancestors' trauma. I learned to distinguish what is mine to carry and what is not. This wasn't just a theoretical exercise; it was a visceral experience of liberation. I am free from spending my energy trying to fix things that are not my responsibility. This understanding is a gift, and it allows me to be more present for my clients without carrying an unnecessary burden.
• Day 3 was a beautiful reunion with a part of myself I'd labeled "Do Not Disturb." I came to understand her as my protector part, and I befriended her. Her name is now FAITH-IN. She's still guarding the door, but now there's a gentle invitation: "knock before you come in." This shift is a profound act of self-compassion, and I am learning to honor her protective nature with kindness.
Taking time to simply be a student to receive rather than always give is a necessary part of this work. Stepping out of my role as a therapist and into a space of pure learning and absorption was a deep act of self-care. It was a beautiful reminder that to truly help others heal, I must be dedicated to my own ongoing journey of growth.