03/10/2024
30 DAYS OF GRATITUDE
Day 1. I am grateful to God.
Sincerely that song is not a lie (Thank God, God no be man o, for if God be man o), you know there are some things I grew up saying I will never relate to but God opened my heart to see this life differently.
Some people feel their life is perfect but look closely, We are all a work in progress and Handling situations and letting go is something we need to learn.
God has been a present father. A helper, A lover, A friend, my everything, some days I just stay quiet and hear him love on me, while some days I just talk and talk and yet he still holds me close to his heart.
I'm grateful for Access Abba, thank you for your girl.
I'm grateful for every dime and thing.
Let me share these; ☺️☺️
As I lay on my bed that day with my phone, thinking on how to scribble down the words on Handling situations and letting go, 1 Peter 5:7 dropped in my spirit and my heart had a thousand and one 💡 ideas 😂☺️.
You know my pastor normally says your mind is yours and you know the amazing thing? you don't pay taxes to use it.
I smiled at the enormous amount of ideas gushing here and there around that scripture.
But then I spent less than 5 minutes writing this letter out I sat and I said a simple prayer.
"God help me"
Not because I could not write but because I needed Abba desperately, I knew if I did this alone it may be from a place of I have been there so let me go all in and pour out all the emotions my heart has ever carried 😂😂😂.
But I slowed down.
And in his words
"Ndee, some battles are not worth fighting, life can be chaotic, it's okay, very okay to let go, just release yourself, and let me handle it."
It was directly at me and I was like Abba really??
But I could feel my self relax and calm down. God knew what he was doing with me.
There was a lot of turmoil in there, so many questions I wanted to ask, so many people I had to settle scores with, so many people I needed to give a small piece of my mind you know 😂😁, But Abba said.
"What is it? Haven't you done enough?😂😂
Holding them in your heart!!
The pain, torment, torture, is it not enough 😂😂
