28/02/2026
I’m in pains 😭
Nurse chi you people should pls pray for me, I’m in pains 😭😭 this is 2:34am and I couldn’t sleep, I’ve been crying and my heart is so heavy.
I’m a 30 years old lady that has been struggling to find love and fall in love for years now, I eventually met someone few months ago and I was surprised my heart connected to him so fast, which is what I’ve been praying for. At a point before I met him I thought I was emotionally dam@ged cos I find it too difficult to fall in love and I needed love, I prayed and fasted not until I met him and it felt like an answered prayer
Before starting this relationship I asked for God intervention, because I do not have any strength left in me for heartbreak anymore 😭😭 I thought I’ve found the one for me not until I had a conversation with him last night because I realized he was always talking about his ex’s. Thou he love me but I noticed his heart still be@t for someone aside me.
So I brought up a deep conversation and he ended up opening up to me that he still have feelings for his previous ex, and he noticed he’s not been able to love completely, the p@inful part is that he still keep the ladies contact, Infact what he saved his contact with when they were together is still there. I got an*gry and he said I was overthinking, that for him to tell me was because he feels very comfortable with me to say anything no matter how hard it’s. I found this weird and heartbroken that I’ve obvious that I’ve been pouring into an empty cup. I’ve been loving a heart that’s feeling for someone else..
I told him we’ll need to part ways till he’s he@l but he was trying to calm me by saying I overthink and overreact a lot. But I’m sure if there’s an opportunity for him to go back to this lady he’ll gladly accept her.. I just told him I’m no longer interested cos on the long run he might not love me properly… but I just want to know why God has choose to purnish me when it comes to love.. I’ve never che@ted in my life, I’ve not even been wayward. I thought this was an answered prayer without knowing it’s a purnishment and another level of heartbreak 😭 how can I he@l from this? Why did God choose to betray and purnish me? I left him cos I know I deserve someone who will love me wholeheartedly. I can’t fix a heart that’s badly broken by someone else. Pls everyone put me in prayer I pray I survive this. I deserve true love and someone that’ll love me. This is too much for me to bear