03/02/2025
๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ญ ๐๐๐๐จ๐ฆ๐๐ฌ ๐ฆ๐๐ฒ
Recently I had a conversation with someone, about how she felt she needed to slow down. After listening, I said โThereโs a lot of โhave toโ happening towards yourselfโ. She said: โYes, you see I ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ to be less strict towards myselfโ. We were both laughing. โฃ
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Now, here in Sri Lanka, one of my winter getaways, travelling with a friend. I love to be here together and share the beauty, the joy and all else. At the same time non-stop sharing space also means more external everything.
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Normally, I sleep like a baby, but now I woke up the last nights with high heart rate and a stressy body. I call it dysregulated nervous system. Well no problem, I just observe, let it be, something new, nothing I have to do with it. โฃ
After a few days I noticed my mind not agreeing โI have to be normalโ, โwhy do I feel overstimulated", "I must regulate thisโ. Haha well well, mind stepped full in the 'have-to- train". โฃ
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I took a moment on the rocks, to feel my body, whatโs up body, what do you need? Body says: 'Some time & space to let all this new stimuli sink in'. Realizing I really needed this moment on the rocks by myself. Mind saying; 'my god you here since three days, whatโs your problem?' An old something, me finding it hard to accept that I love my alone time. Mind thinks its lame.A little insight in my internal disagreement. ๐
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I softenend, I thanked my body, I listened. Ok, I need some time for myself, maybe even a few nights in my own hut. Shared it with my friend. Spend most of the day on the rocks, all good. From moeten naar mogen. Body feels calm, mind has not much to say anymore. Not much changed in circumstances, rock time was all I needed, still sharing space. An internal awereness, change of perspective was all. Must becomes may. โฃ
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This little personal story basically is ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ฌ๐๐ง๐๐ ๐จ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ซ๐ญ ๐จ๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ฅ๐๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐, ๐ฏ๐๐ง ๐ฆ๐จ๐๐ญ๐๐ง ๐ง๐๐๐ซ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ ๐๐ง. ๐
๐ซ๐จ๐ฆ ๐๐ข๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ง๐๐ข๐ง๐ , ๐จ๐๐ฌ๐๐ซ๐ฏ๐ข๐ง๐ , ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ง๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ญ๐จ๐ฐ๐๐ซ๐๐ฌ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ง๐๐๐๐ฌ. โฃRealizing how all is an invitation to move inwards & shine outwards.๐
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All the love, heat & sweat from me to you.โฃ
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Irisโฃโค๏ธ