08/02/2025
✨When the terrible overshadows the great: life update✨
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I was thinking for the longest insufferable time if I should share what has been happening to me lately.
Eventually I’m deciding to do so, because I don’t know how much longer my situation is going to last, and right now I can do almost none of the stuff that had been keeping me busy for the past couple of years.
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🙏🏽Good news, which I intended to share much earlier - I can see without glasses, and that has been my big dream (although I haven’t recovered after the procedure yet). Now should be the time of joy and rest for me, but…
Even before I went through this surgery, I knew something is seriously off with my usually perfectly healthy body. I went through a series of examinations, and the results were so untypical of my patient’s profile that I wasn’t even sure what’s going on for a couple of weeks, hearing a couple of different versions. Not ready to discuss my medical record yet, but my latest diagnose suggests that I’m in big trouble for no apparent reason that could be pointed out by the doctors.
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And just like this, the celebration of life turned into a possible sentence.
If everything goes well, I will fully recover in maximum 6 months and move on. However, that requires a lot of life adjustments.
I am postponing most of my ceremonies and tarot sessions right now, but I will do them ASAP. In theory none of them disrupt my treatment, but the stress is dangerous right now.
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It’s not the first time I face something life-threatening, but this time is very different, because it’s not a one time incident, it’s an illness that does not suit my lifestyle, age, or general health state.
Not sure what will happen now, but I’m hoping I will be able to share more soon, in a more uplifting fashion 🫶🏽
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I guess it’s also an opportunity to find out if I preach the right things, and if I can handle this emotional baggage after all the years of personal and spiritual development. And this path, the hardest so far, is fair to share with anyone who ever believed in me.
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