16/02/2025
BURNED OUT
It’s has been a year 2024: more than 190 yogaclasses, 20 singing circles, 6 workshops/ specials, 2 performances, 1 ceremony. (And of course my other normal job)
Super grateful for all the opportunities and cocreations. All of those who joined me and shared their beautiful presence.
But it was a lot, I couldn’t give anything anymore. Time to rest. What is that exactly?
Normally I go for intense healing retreats & teacher trainings in my so called ‘holidays’. Always in the doing, just to fit in, not fail, be better and belong.
So decided on 5 weeks of holidays on Koh phangan. A place I feel home. My mind thought this is too much, I don’t deserve this, I need to be productive, learn, work, heal more, can’t be away for so long doing ‘nothing’, too expensive, still so much to do…
It was scary to go without a plan. To go to rest. Non-doing.
As it took me 3 weeks to fully arrive here on the island and in my body. Realizing how tired I was mentally, emotionally and physically. I was burned out.
What did I do? Sleep, sleep and sleep. Trying to have no plans, trying to feel what I needed. Coming back to my practices: Yoga, nature walks, time with friends, hugs, journaling, letting the tears flow & laughter come, dance and of course sing.
I feel much better, but not fully there yet. Now it’s time to come back home. Can I keep the balance of doing and non-doing?
