22/06/2024
As a reply to the previous Reel.
Our inner critical voice is not rational. It most often doesn’t make sense.
We are all dominated, directed, affected by our inner voices.
If a child, an infant, has been told all her life that she’s ugly, disgusting, or the mother has for some reason resented the child, an example is pregnant by r**e, these voices settled in the BodyMind/Soma as unconscious truth. This child may grow up to be the next Beyoncé or the most beautiful girl at school, yet she will have voices in her telling her that she is ugly, disgusting.
Our rational mind cannot fathom this. Other people can’t comprehend this. But on a cellular level, in our organs, in our energy system this is true.
With my rational mind I know I have little body fat on me. When I put on objective glasses 👓 and stand from afar, looking at me as if I’m someone else, I can see that I’m sexy, that I’m strong. But. That doesn’t change the information that resides in my cells, in my gut tube, my heart organ, in my mani pura chakra that “nobody wants you if you have fat on your body.” “You have to skinny like a model to get a handsome man.”
My mother spoke daily about how fat she was, how she should get a fat suction, “Don’t ever get fat Leika, nobody will want you”. When I was a teenager I would sit with a kitchen knife to my belly crying because I had fat on my tummy.
Somatic Healing and Therapy have been my way out. But when I look at myself, like on the previous video, my Ego, my critical voice, my fear, catches me, I feel the claws on me, and I don’t want to share something cool, or beautiful, or insightful, because of my tainted glasses 👓.
My biggest motto in life: “Face your Fears. Be brave.”
My healthy inner voice kicks in: “You preach vulnerability and honesty, so walk your talk and share.”
We women, have some work and healing to do when it comes to Bodily issues, Body images, cultural indoctrination. Let’s show ourselves that we won’t let irrational voices dominate.
