02/09/2025
I was so initiated.
Her psyche soma split was like my worst nightmare thickening my blood.
This woman had found her way into my World and here she was, unapologetic, but more than that, she was uncontained.
Her energy was leaking so heavily, my heart hit the floor and terror washed over me.
I saw visions of myself collapsing, my business melting to nothing overnight and worse, my own deepest fear coming up for air after years of denying it.
See, seizures were such a terrifying experience that I feared the day I wouldn’t be able to reconfigure who I was. If I couldn’t come back and integrate the split between my body and my mind.
I had had a life time of already feeling so split in my nature. As if I was human, but observing other humans wondering how I fit in.
If you can relate, I see you.
But this fear ran deeper than I knew when this mirror showed up in my life and gave me an option.
I either buckle and shy away, fall into the fear and leave well enough alone...
or
I show up and lean into the full Source of the All and realise this was my opportunity to show the f*k up and face my deepest fears and DO the thing.
By 2am my 18x pages of journalling and Kanika processing, I felt it.
This inner spark, like a lit match on a damp and cold mildewy day.
A beckon of warmth, light and grace started to wash over me.
The next day, I did what had to be done. I faced that reflection, within this woman, not just her, but many others who had mirrored this energy in my life since my birth.
AND THERE IT WAS.
It wasnt the circumstances that altered me in that moment.
It was the profound depth I had to go to find a deeper anchor of Sovereignty and know I could handle the split if necessary.
And it moved me.
I will never be available for that split again. Its no longer an option in my field.
My bones no longer sing that frequency and so it is done.
And like the phoenix I rose.
THAT is the power of reIGNITING your inner flame. Of deciding that others opinions, experiences, projections are what you make them.
And what chapter will you now write in your life story.
