Hinerangi Skywoman

06/11/2025

Kia Ora e nga iwi, e pehea ana? He harikoa ahau i tenei ra. What a beautiful day it is here in Aotearoa. As time keeps ticking, the path ahead becomes clearer. With all that is happening in life, there are special moments where I have vowed to be present.

As I reconnect with people, there are lessons to be had. One connection in particular is with my little big sister. I feel she would be ok for me sharing as she navigates her haerenga. We shared a space of gratitude, which was a first for the both of us. It was a space in which we were able to be pono even if it hurt. A space of uncomfortability, but something that was needed.

Being in this space of uncomfortability is and will be uncomfortable, but I can not stress how healing it can be. Im not staying. it's the be-all and end all as there is a lot of mahi, aroha, and patience required. Hei aha, it can be the start of something beautiful.

With that said, to my sister, I thank you for the bravery for coming back after everything. For standing in your purpose and for owning your raruraru. I am grateful to have sat in an uncomfortable space and just to be present with you. This haerenga will not be straightforward, and there will be obstacles. Hei aha, I see your mana, your determination to be better, and for that, I am so proud. Ka arohanui e hoa, day by day one foot in front of the other. REREHIKO 🧡

06/11/2025

Kia Ora e te iwi, feeling beautiful today. I walked out of a shop with two outfits just for me and nothing else. If you are a parent, I am sure you will understand the inner battle this was 💚. It's been a long time since I got myself some clothes, and today I wanted to show it off 🤣. Babies are off to kura, I am behind the computer to finish this last dam assignment (yes, it's been big, mahi, hence why Im still working on it).

Hope you all have a wonderful Friday and a relaxing weekend. Take some time for you and be grateful for the small things. Today, I am grateful for my really cool pants 🧡.

26/10/2025

Kia Ora e nga iwi, pehea ana? I hope you are all doing well. As my due date approaches (28 Oct), I am not feeling that confident I will have my dissertation submitted, but extremely hopeful.

It has been a difficult time trying to manage my sons transition, our health goals, part-time mahi, and this last research paper. However, little pockets of family time, whanau reconnection, and rest have been a life saver.

As we head into the end of the long weekend, I aim to use as much time as possible to complete the writing portion of this dissertation. It's going to be one of the most important pieces I have ever written about a topic that is very dear to me. Whilst I continue to push through the stress, late nights, and endless coffees, I acknowledge the unexpected thoughts and emotions of negativity that try to prevent me from continuing.

This is the final stretch to me becoming a qualified counselling psychologist, one step closer to being registered. Although there are significant barriers in my way, there are also some wonderful enablers to remind me why I need to keep going.

If you are in a similar boat, I know it's difficult, but I believe in you. Never forget your WHY, you wouldn't be here otherwise. Until next time, PEACE ✌️.

16/10/2025

Kia Ora e nga iwi, the last few days have been tough emotionally. Crying like a baby at the most random times for no significant reason. This is the first time where I did all the 'selfcare' things, but it didn't shake. I quickly realised it wasn't about shaking it but rather sitting with no matter how painful.

I know this will pass, I know I will be ok, but the point in sharing this is to show that emotions are normal. We can talk about all the positive s**t in the world, our best achievements, our most rewarding experiences, and how we are living our best lives.

What we dont show is our vulnerability, our sadness, heartbreaks, anger, negative thoughts, and endless tears. The constant battles that we all face and the wars we try to navigate on our own. Emotions are normal, so talking about them should be too.

It's a beautiful Friday whānau, I hope you all have a wonderful day and a relaxing weekend ahead. Haumi e, hui e, taiki e ###

12/10/2025

Kia Ora e te iwi, today kicks off my first week off site from my son 😪. We had a great start to the morning, but leaving him still gets hard. I am confident that with time, these moments will get easier, and with the amazing support from his kura, it puts my mind at ease.

Due to the schedule and my small window of free time hitting the books is the goal. One more research paper to go with two weeks before the due date. Im hoping to touch base with my other kids for mahi to ensure they are tracking well.

Things are moving in a direction I have been working so hard for. Even though the path I am on is looking very different, I am hopeful. Change can be so scary as it brings so much uncertainty and doubt. With that said, I am ready for it and excited to see everything unfold. That's us for this wet Monday morning, manifesting more sunshine and good days ahead. Until next time, PEACE ✌️.

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09/10/2025

Kia Ora e nga iwi, as I sit and reflect on all the good things that are happening. I need to sit in the uncomfortable space of all the 'toxic' crap that many of us face. Due to the person that I am, there are things that I keep private for the sake of others. That will never change, but I will always remain open and as authentic as I can be with the intention to learn, grow, and heal, not shaming and blaming.

With that said, removing people and the toxic crap that comes with it has to be normalised. Across media, we always talk about selfcare and focusing on the things that bring us happiness. However, there are those people who will flip it, turn it, and change the narrative in the hopes to make you look like the villain. If you respond, you're oversharing. If you dont respond, you have something to hide. This brings that concept of "dammed if you, dammed if you dont."

On this new path, I have found my voice again. It has taken a long time for me to get to this point, but I am here now. I am strong enough to hold myself accountable for the continuous decisions I have made that have led to pain, heartache, self sabotage, and grief. Why, because I always wanted to see the good in people.

I am now in a place of 'uncomfortability' that strengthens me to use my voice for good. I am closing chapters to a book I no longer wish to read. I will no longer allow myself to fall victim to those who longer serve me. From here on in, I am me and will continue on this journey of me. Call it selfishness or whatever narrative you would like to see it as. I see this as me moving on and becoming the person I have always been. This is your permission to do the same, I am sending aroha for those who resonate and mana to those who have lost it. Say it with me whānau, Haumi e, hui e, taiki e ###

08/10/2025

School is back. Therefore, a new routine has begun. The hope for our little mister is to be at primary school full time by week 6 with small progress each week. I am still on site for his two hours just out of view. Its hard when you hear their cries as you walk away knowing you will be back, but understanding they just see you leaving. As I hid around the corner, listening to him cry, I prayed and waited patiently for him to settle with his teacher. Within 5 minutes, the crying stopped, and feedback was he was fine (deep down I knew he would be).

Three weeks left to get my research dissertation completed, and that's my master's done and dusted. Received another A for my placement reflective essay, which I mean the experience provided me with so much to reflect on 😅, so very happy I was able to show that.

I have had an interview for a potential internship for next year, just waiting for the outcome, so I feel hopeful. Once I sort these last little bits Im for sure looking forward to taking a break. Hitting the beach now, the weather is picking up, as well as some much needed quality time with the babies. I hope you are all finding pockets of selfcare. Do not take for granted, e nga iwi you matter more than you know. Until next time, PEACE ✌🏾

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28/09/2025

Kia Ora e te iwi, most of my time lately is spent behind a computer. With the sun out, I thought it was good to get some fresh air with these monkeys.

I'm going to have a full whare tonight with some whanau heading down from the naughty North. I finally get to meet my little baby niece, and for sure, I will be posting her hehe.

Have a fun filled week dedicated to these monkeys for the last week of school holidays. The calendar has been updated, funds have been saved, and the team is ready. Hope yall are having a restful Sunday. Until next time, PEACE ✌🏾

26/09/2025

Kia Ora e te iwi, it's been a while since I've posted. We are still here as life is lyfing 😅. Placement is over and done with, and I have 1 more assignment to complete, and my first year of Masters will be complete.

I am prepping for my last year as I head into my internship as a Māori counseling psychologist. As I reflect on this new journey, I am hopeful. Even with all the stress that comes with this career choice, my determination, my passion, and my gratitude over rides the constant self-doubt.

With regards to my health, well, that's another story. Im still committed to making small changes, but it has not been a priority as of late. However, me and my daughter are slowly finding our groove again.

That's all from me at this stage, but I hope all is going well for all these school holidays. Hopefully, we will be back up and posting consistently soon. Go well e nga iwi, continue to rock your goals and grab life by the balls. Te Ao is your oyster of endless possibilities, mauria Ora ###

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03/09/2025

It's my last day of my 7 week placement whānau. I am looking forward to completing this part of my studies in prep for internship next year. Let's finish this ###

29/08/2025

04/08/2025

Mōrena e te iwi, running behind schedule this morning. Didn't get a workout in, hoping to have some energy to get it done this afternoon. I'm off to placement this morning, so chill day in the office.

Have a wonderful everybody, take your time, breathe, one foot in front of the other x