30/05/2025
Returning home
You never know which crumb will guide you back to yourself. It might be a passing word from a friend, a reel on socials, or an email that lands in your inbox.
Twelve weeks ago, an email arrived that piqued my natural curiosity. That curiosity was like a tiny crack in a door, which I opened slowly without having any expectation of what was on the other side.
As the weeks passed, I listened. I absorbed. I began adopting new ways of perceiving and being. Creating space for my body to lead.
At one point, I found myself thinking: “This has been easy. I’m nailing this.” But my journal told another story. Hidden in the pages were old beliefs dressed up as reassurance talking me into staying comfortable:
“I’ll do it my way — just a little tweak here and there — and that’ll be enough.”
But those little compromises would have pulled me off the path, into the well worn patterns of old
That voice began to quiet... until it barely spoke at all. And when it did, the power to derail me was gone. Not because I used willpower. But because I stopped feeding it.
Instead, I began nurturing a new relationship — With food. With my body. With the woman I am becoming.
I’ve allowed myself to feel supported — by family, friends, even the beautiful staff in restaurants. And in that space, I’ve felt something unfurl...
A version of me I hadn’t met before: A woman comfortable in her skin.
As my body transitions from the fertile phase into the rich, creative, embodied Crone years, it has been a pleasure to acquaint myself with the woman who was waiting within - hidden under heaviness, memories, and emotions I no longer need to carry.
In the words of the great Dave Dobbyn: “Welcome home, I bid you welcome — see I made a space for you now. Welcome home, from the bottom of my heart.”
If you are standing at a doorway, feeling curious, uncertain, or quietly hopeful, this is the work I walk alongside others in.
Not fixing. Not forcing. Just remembering.
Through plants, presence, and gentle recalibration, I hold space for the sacred return to yourself.