05/06/2023
What a funny old year it's been… It has been quiet on my site for a while and today I started feeling the muse to reconnect and give a bit of a multidimensional update :D .
As most of you know, the beautiful Piha bach that I called home and that most of you know as the little sanctuary it was, was badly damaged in the cyclone in February and since then my life has been an extraordinary experience. My house was falling off the foundations and I found myself ejected from my life as I knew it. Since then, this year has been feeling like I am living some sort of parallel timeline, or in two dimensions at the same time. Everything seems possible all at the same time and I am called to building new foundations… I never thought about the fact that revolution and evolution can be the same thing…
It has not been a comfortable year, living out of an extended suitcase for months, not having the things I usually have around me, not being able to do the things I usually do; it felt like everything had been stripped away. Work seems to have been my ground anchor. It has been an incredible process to really witness what I hold on to, what I use to ground, what little things can become our new rituals, what I use to define myself. All of a sudden, when everything is gone, these things can surface. Over the past weeks I have started feeling like I am having an identity crisis, because there are so many things I haven't been able to do that I normally do to nourish and look after myself. But on the flip side, it has been so powerful to be stripped back to a baseline, and as I have been moving from place to place, I have been able to add back in things one by one, like I am my own little scientific energetic experiment. And just this last week, I have started to understand just how connected in I am to the natural world, just how much "creation" is part of my essence, how important wholesome nourishment and healing of body and soul matter to my being; how I almost have no choice but to engage with creation if I am to be content and balanced.
Yesterday I bottled some tinctures I made and found myself become so alive in the process, thriving on the energetic communication that exists between the plants that are working through the potions and some deeply knowing part of myself (aka the witch :D). The potions and balms I am making are my constant reminder of how what we feed will feed back to us. What we engage with energetically will grow. This year is challenging me to keep my focus clear and strong.
I feel many of us have been challenged to look at who we are, what we bring and why we do what we do this year. How to walk in this world. In many of my clients I am witnessing the desire to clear the deepest earliest wounds, so we can move forward into a different way of being in the world. Our bodies seem to demand the purge, like we are out of time; the old frequencies need to be shifted so our bodies can come into alignment with the changing frequency of the planet as a whole. While many may not have a vocabulary for what they are experiencing, I am sure we are all feeling it in our own way. Many seem to be feeling exhausted, restless, even anxious, low in life force, spacey, low in appetite. You are not alone.
Rather than changing the experience, I am feeling very drawn to supporting what is happening, with my bodywork, soulwork and the medicine I am making, so it can be an easier shift. I am feeling a deep calling to be working with plants that can assist us with that process and I am feeling grateful to have been reminded of this "outlet" of my creative urge.
If you are interested in any of the tinctures, feel free to message me.
On another, very practical note... I am still in temporary accommodation but am working from a wonderful sleepout in Piha until spring (at this stage). I am looking for a home. It doesn't have to be Piha, I am looking quite a bit further afield as well, and am open to where the universe wants to put me next. If you know of anyone who has a cottage type thing that will suit me - needs to be in nature (like out the back of someone's farm etc), separate and private but not really isolated, big enough to live and work out of (but doesn't have to be big at all, spacious FEEL is more important), good storage, nice people in the vicinity, affordable by a single person (!), not too far from Auckland so I can still work in the city on two days, from September or October onwards or so ... do let me know. I am all ears!!