25/10/2022
Indie has now been in active treatment for 87 days ! 😨
With her 5th cycle of chemo starting yesterday , she’s totally zapped from it today 😭 and this is officially her longest stint in hospital , 8 nights and counting.
Looking back a lot of the early days seem like a blur now , it makes me realise the true mental impact something like this has , you just end up living your life in survival mode . I unapologetically have a lot less tolerance for certain things and some people on particular days , I’m putting all my energy where it needs to be !
With Christmas fast approaching it’s hitting us that this year will be very different to any other , it’s hard to make any plans when everything is so unknown , we likely won’t be able to leave Christchurch till well into the new year .
I am also well aware that there are families in here who’s lives are so much more disrupted than ours and families who have to spend weeks if not months seperated from one another 😭😭 So I’m also very grateful because as bad as things feel sometimes , they could always be worse.
That’s my winge for the week , I’ve been trying not to complain as I spend my days next to a 2 year old who is being robbed of her childhood and she still rarely complains about anything 💔
Here’s perky Indie yesterday before the chemo took its toll 🥹